Pre op appt.

[brandy88 151]

Had my pre op appt. today shocking I didn't have many questions, I have read and looked Into everything to point of freaking myself out and back. I did learn I have no required weight loss before hand which was something I was worried about. Also only limited on what I can lift for 2 weeks ( my youngest is 11mo). I need this so bad, found odd its exactly one year after I woke up in hospital to dr telling me I was lucky to be alive, so I have faith this yr on 12th I will wake up to good news. Because last yr on 12 th I woke up in hospital and scared to death bc I didn't know where my kids were and not understanding why dr told me I was lucky to be alive bc last thing I remembered was putting my 3 yr old sons clothes on. Well turns out I had 5-7 seizures before getting to hospital and was in congestive heart failure... Shocking bc I had just had a baby 4 days before and my blood pressure was little high but they said I was fine. I come back and they can't get under control and said seizures were my bodies way of saying hey ur about to have heart attack or stoke. I had to stop breast feeding and laying in a hospital bed for a week to try and lower blood pressure I got really sick and depressed think why did this happen to me, I have 3 boys to tAke care of I can't die . Well this started my weight loss journey again, always had issues but knew at 280lbs I would die if didn't do something. While in hospital I lost 50 lbs and was so happy until it slowly came back.... I had a bad year doctors..money issues..court things and I'm up to 265.8 today I'm so mad at myself but march 12th my life will improve and I'm doing this for me... So pre op diet tomorrow the start of something good... I hope.

[Ms.AntiBand 2,984]

Good for you taking control of a healthy life and future. Of course, first off you're doing it or you, but dang those kiddos are a huge motivator aren't they! Love 'em!