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[Sannah 258]

Hey chick' date=' just dropped in to find out how you are, sorry to see you are still having issues. It's great to have your family to support you. Much ❤

Jessica[/quote']

Hello Jessica!!

Thanks for checking in. It's so nice to feel the support. .

It's ok. I am certain with my transfer of care that everything is bound to workout. It has to, right? It really can't get worse.

How's your day and journey going?

Best,

Sannah ????

[Sannah 258]

Thinking of you Sannah !!!

Hi!!

Thank you so much!! I see the cardiologist today. I think getting my heart back into a healthy place is going to be a huge step for me. I worry about this a lot. My blood pressure and pulse just keep rising and falling. It's miserable. I have never had anything like it. The drugs make me so sick. It's weird.

How's your day going? Is it a good one?

Best,

Sannah

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Sannah....thinking of you. Hang in there girl. Much love <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/laugh.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' />

Hi Katie,

How are you doing? Your week off to a good start!!

I am hanging in here, but by a thread. It's going to get better. I am feeling good and then not well based on taking all these medicines for my heart. I hope to get answers today. I want so badly to be healthy and in a good place. .

Thank you for being so kind and all your support!!

Hugs and love!

Best,

Sannah

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I just read the entire thread. I'm so sorry you are going through this. I pray that you begin to fell better soon. Good for you for changing doctors and being an advocate for your own healthcare. I agree that a fresh set of eyes may prove beneficial.

Hi!

I like your name!! Thank you for posting and your words of encouragement! I am thankful to have all this support.

This journey has been rough sailing!! No doubt!! I am down 64 pounds, but it doesn't feel good like I did it is in the last through nutrition and exercise. Maybe because for almost two and a half months I have not been able to eat. I am all liquid.

I am happy and excited to change care over. How's your hour way going? Where are you in this process?

Best,

Sannah

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Hi!

I like your name!! Thank you for posting and your words of encouragement! I am thankful to have all this support.

This journey has been rough sailing!! No doubt!! I am down 64 pounds' date=' but it doesn't feel good like I did it is in the last through nutrition and exercise. Maybe because for almost two and a half months I have not been able to eat. I am all liquid.< /p>

I am happy and excited to change care over. How's your hour way going? Where are you in this process?

Best,

Sannah[/quote']

So glad to hear things are at least starting to look up for you. The leak and the ramifications of such are my biggest fear. I am pre op and scheduled for Feb 26 in Tj Mx with Dr Fernando Garcia. I'm now in the countdown to the home stretch.

[kiki1196 101]

Sannah- You, girl, are a true inspiration!! Your daughter will someday be so proud of you for your strength and not letting this journey turn you bitter. You seem so sweet and kind through all of this. I think of you often and wish you the very best with the new Drs. Please continue to keep us posted so we can support you in any way we can. Take care!

[No game 14,437]

Hi Sannah,

Wishing you the best today. Let us know what the doctor has to say.

And girl I live in Northern California there is no snow where we live either! We went to the beach twice this weekend! We just cut our trees down in the Santa Cruz mountains...

Give Venla hugs and kisses from the strange lady Laura!

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Hello Dawn,

I am sorry it took so long for me to reply. My two thumbs couldn’t write this reply, because I had several things I wanted to write back with! Wouldn’t it figure that I am feeling so brain dead. Well, actually physically and mentally- checked out a little.

First off, your son is sure a handsome young man!!! I LOVE his hair, but as you know I am biased towards red heads. My mom, sister, aunt and uncle are all red heads and somehow I have this weird color. Did/are you guys doing the tooth fairy deal? Venlas teeth are just now coming in!! It’s so fun to watch her grow and change!

You are so right about these darn leaks!!! It’s not really the stomach so much as it is every other organ that gets damaged or disrupted by the damage. Leaks are devastating physically and the emotions are an aftershock. I thought I would have a leak because I am often times the weird 1% and my body is generally sensitive. I do have to say that surgery was so easy. I came home on Advil and I was fine. Right before my leak I kept thinking this was so easy!! Why in the world didn’t I do this sooner?!? The truth be told I never thought my weight was that big of an issue. I would never have imaged that I would have WLS. But the more I researched the more I accepted WLS as an option for me.

Sounds like you have been hard at work on the costumes!!! Perhaps the trip up to Alaska will be a nice little break!!!

I do not take pain meds. I did for a while and they did the job, but it has always been my intention to try to be off such potent drugs as soon as possible. I have never been the type of person who likes to take medication, unless absolutely needed. I am not sure what my blood pressure or heart did on pain meds. It seems that everything is blurry! Maybe this is for the better? I do know that when I was hospitalized I was on a nitropatch and IV meds for my heart. My husband told me this today, I was not aware and this fact creeps me out!!

I can relate all too well to these moments of wondering if this is it. I asked my doctor if I was going to die and made it clear I WAS NOT ready to die. In one procedure a very kind doctor held my hand and came down to my eye level, I was laying down and he let me know I was not going to die and I would live. I didn’t believe him, but I have this image of his face telling me this, and I recall him being so kind and gentle.

Thank for your message and support. It’s so nice to have someone to talk with. I agree unless you’ve walked in these shoes you have no idea. I never realized I would be okay until I talked to someone else with a leak. I still try to focus on the fact that I am going to be okay! I am going to make it!!! Also, thank you for giving me a place to find strength. My daughter is a good motivation to keep pushing and to do the things that are hard! I am going to write this down so I can remember, that when I am feeling weak to think of Venla and she is a HUGE and GREAT reason to do hard things (appointments , testing and all that stuff).

I hope my message makes sense! I am so out of it!!

I hope your having a peaceful evening!

Best,

Sannah

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So glad to hear things are at least starting to look up for you. The leak and the ramifications of such are my biggest fear. I am pre op and scheduled for Feb 26 in Tj Mx with Dr Fernando Garcia. I'm now in the countdown to the home stretch.

Hey Sweet Tee!!

The leak was my and still is one of my biggest fears. My other was blood clots, thankfully this no never came true!! If I can share anything with you about leaks its this. Listen to your body! No one knows it best!! Leaks don't always present in the subset of symptoms the doctors give us. I had a low dull back ache. Who would have thought a leak? I didn't and neither did my dr. You're going to be good! Its so great that you are doing research and finding information out. Do you have insurance that would cover any complications? I hope so. They are very costly.

Welcome to the journey! I am sure you'll do great!!! Congrats on reaching the home stretch!!! How exciting!! February 26th!! It will be here before you know!! I cant wait to follow your journey and see your success!!

Best,

Sannah

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Hi Sannah,

Wishing you the best today. Let us know what the doctor has to say.

And girl I live in Northern California there is no snow where we live either! We went to the beach twice this weekend! We just cut our trees down in the Santa Cruz mountains...

Give Venla hugs and kisses from the strange lady Laura!

Laura!

Your great!!! I got a kick out of your "Strange Lady Laura" comment!! I gave her big hugs and kisses!!! Little Venla was a ball of fire tonight, it was so fun!!! She was walking all over and cracking up!

We are practically neighbors!! Not often I find someone only a state away!!! Is it pretty warm right now? The beach!!! I am jealous!! The coast here in Oregon is gloomy!! Nothing like California, or parts of CA I have been too!!

How was your day? Having a relaxing evening!? You guys doing anything for Valentines day? I was thinking I might get Venla a bright fun heart shaped balloon and a toy. Might be fun!

Best,

Sannah

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Sannah- You, girl, are a true inspiration!! Your daughter will someday be so proud of you for your strength and not letting this journey turn you bitter. You seem so sweet and kind through all of this. I think of you often and wish you the very best with the new Drs. Please continue to keep us posted so we can support you in any way we can. Take care!

Good Evening Kiki,

Your message is very heartfelt. I appreciate that you are thinking of me and wishing me well. This leak has been outrageous! I want so badly to be in a healthy place. With all of the support from you and the others I can do this!! You gals are helping me more than I am able to express! I feel like everyone giving me this support is a positive current carrying me along. I am getting stronger, but when I am weak I reread messages and realize I am okay.

I think having these new doctors is the right thing to do!! I believe that they are going to help and support me!!! To feel like I am able ask them questions without judgment is an amazing feeling!

Thank you kindly for being here! Even more thank you for carrying me through this process! I am truly thankful to have such great people here for me and cheering me on.

I hope that your journey is unlike mine! I wish smooth sailing to you!!

Best,

Sannah

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Hello All!

I hope you guys are all having a great evening.

I saw the cardiologist today, he is younger!!! This is something that I really like about him. He is calm and centered and was able to address all of my questions. I feel so positive and very confident in his ability. I am now informed about my heart health and the processes that need to take place.

Great news! He is allowing me stop one medication that I take 9 pills of a day. This medication is dreadful!!! I have miserable side effects. I have to taper off and I am okay with this. I was also taking the highest dosage and he was not surprised to hear of all the problems I was having when I took it. Dilated pupils, back pain, nausea, vomitting, red hot face,severe head pain, aching joints and dizziness. I was taking this medicine three times a day!! I dreaded this medicine, because I knew I would be out of commission after taking it!!! I AM SO HAPPY TO STOP!!!

He believes my leak has really agitated my heart. He says I will recover, but doesn't know how long it will take. Could be months... Could be years... So, we'll see. My heart is clear of Fluid and inflammation! Beating normal this time. Prior I was having irregular heart beats.

I need to wear a heart monitor for 2-3 weeks. He said I can think about this. I am kind of done with medical devices being in or on my body and space.

So, although I still require care things are surely looking up! I have a doctor who is able to explain my condition to me and give me a clear treatment plan! I am so happy and thankful for this!! What a great appointment!

Best,

Sannah

[No game 14,437]

Laura!

Your great!!! I got a kick out of your "Strange Lady Laura" comment!! I gave her big hugs and kisses!!! Little Venla was a ball of fire tonight' date=' it was so fun!!! She was walking all over and cracking up!

We are practically neighbors!! Not often I find someone only a state away!!! Is it pretty warm right now? The beach!!! I am jealous!! The coast here in Oregon is gloomy!! Nothing like California, or parts of CA I have been too!!

How was your day? Having a relaxing evening!? You guys doing anything for Valentines day? I was thinking I might get Venla a bright fun heart shaped balloon and a toy. Might be fun!

Best,

Sannah[/quote']

Sannah,

Glad you gave her kisses for me! I miss having a baby girl!

Besides my son I have a 16 year old daughter!

I'm a bit older than you! (46) now having a teenage daughter is a whole different ball game!!

I love Oregon! We don't get up there often but my husband is the king of car trips during the summer, he has many fond memories of being a child and driving all over on vacation. So he piles us in the car at least once a year! And we went all over Oregon two years ago.

The kids loved it, they really liked bend! My son especially because they had those kinds of restaurants I think they call them "car hops" its when you pull up to a spot, order and they bring the food to you! He's lazy!

We also went to a spot where the kids were able to hunt for obsidian... They love rock collecting.

As for my day it was good I spent it cleaning out my saltwater tanks. That's always fun because I like to go to the local aquarium store and flirt with the young men there every two weeks while I get my saltwater

I'm not sure if we are doing anything for valentines day but I know there will be no chocolates this year!!

Did you like your doctor?

I know you must be tired so don't feel obligated to write back tonight.

Laura

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I'm glad the new doctor is taking good care of you!!!

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Sannah, know that you do not have to post daily. We'll still check back and watch for you. Some days I was just too tired so I get it. And I know they lovely supporters you have here will as well. Just don't leave us too long as we worry.

I'm laying in bed in Alaska and the northern lights are giving me a show. I'm so damn tired (I was up at 2am) that I just want to sleep, but hate to miss it LOL

You made me cry my dear. The story of the lovely doctor. What a wonderful man. I had this "horrible" nurse. Brusk as all get out. NAGGED me to breath in that damn breathing thing constantly. I yelled at her and told her I was just trying to survive for gods sake (this was right after my first chaplin visit LOL) so to get off my back. (This is not how I am normally LOL). She walked to the door and closed it, then came back and stood over my bed with her arms crossed (wearing a puppy love smock...I can still picture it LOL) and very fiercely said "No body dies on my watch missy. I don't care what those guys say, you're going to stay alive until you do what I ask you to do!" I think I laughed for the first time in weeks She did too, and sat down on my bed and helped me breath in that stupid thing then squeezed my hand and said quietly, "You aren't going to die honey, I won't let you". OK now I'm crying again....damn old woman...I don't even remember her name but she was lovely.

I had my son's stuffed dog "Charlie" with me all of the time. He is with all of us when we're sick and when I was being shoved in the ambulance a friend gave it to me. I cried over that stupid dog daily, but he reminded me of my son's need every second of the time I was away. I will always have that dog. Find a memento...I know you're home, but keep something of her with you every second honey. Those kids give us strength we never knew we possessed. You're finding out your strength is much more than you probably thought. I'm impressed by it. I know what it takes to keep it up.

You are doing this baby. I know you have good and bad days but you are taking the steps. True baby steps at times honey, but steps! The fact that you are discovering things that happened in hospital means you're well enough to care. I have many blank moments that I learn about here and there from friends I saw and don't remember seeing to things DH says. But you're caring now and filing it all away as you search for the next step forward.

My son Sannah is HORSE MAD! I got to go shopping today to pick up a treat because he had a milestone at school today while I was gone. I actually thought of you and your little darling as I was shopping....in a few years Sannah you're going to be standing in front of the "horse" isle at the toy store, because aren't all girls horse mad? and you will be picking up the perfect one for her. Hours of play will follow on your hands and knees...and you'll not be thinking of all of this horror. Your life will be better and this will all have passed! When you're there, think of me and send me a mental smile.

Oh and on a lighter note...tooth fairy! Oh yes we do all magic...santa, tooth fairy, Easter bunny....and no we're not religious, but I take the fun from all holidays LOL I think magic is a wonderful part of a childs life and frankly, sneaking into his bedroom to take his tooth and replace it with...whatever you do....is incredibly fun He actually had his first two teeth pulled due to an accident. It was such a sudden thing that I hadn't thought of the fairy and we were staying at a hotel. I'd tipped every red cent on me and had nothing but 20's. He put his head on the pillow and said how excited he was going to be to see what the tooth fairy left...talk about an "awe chit" moment! Alone with a kid just getting over anesthesia I couldn't leave obviously (he was 5) so I called the front desk and they sent up a stuffed bear to which I attached a 20 with a note that said the tooth fairy knew he was going by a train store in the morning and she wanted him to pick out his favorite train.

He was so impressed she knew our plans LOL (She is a smartie LOL). The second loss was when I was on a business trip overnight. My darling nanny called and asked what to do....I remembered we had a stuffed toy hidden that I forgot to put out at Christmas (in the wine room where we hide all the kids toys LOL) so she had to creep down the dark steps to the cellar and find that stuffed dog He was entranced. At that point I'd set a horrific standard for the tooth fairy! The third tooth I left a beautiful 1.00 coin in the little silver box he leaves his teeth in and he was happy with it, but asked if the tooth fairy was on a budget LMAO (apparently he's been listening to daddy!). I have stuffed toys in reserve now heh heh

Lesson learned...Sannah you never know when they are going to lose a tooth. BE PREPARED and DON'T SET THE BAR TOO HIGH DUE TO LACK OF COINAGE LMAO

Smooches darling. You are getting better....one step at a time. We'll all walk it with you hun. All you have to do is fight and that's easy for a mom! Practice for the teen years

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Also..

The cardiologist said If I can start to eat my heart may improve!!

I do not like salt. I have never been a fan. I do not add salt to my food and have always brought low sodium when it's an option. Suddenly I need salt. This is bad, like I could easily grind in it in a spoon and enjoy!! What is going on with me? My husband was in shock to see me eating salt. I am having some blood work.

Weird right?