Date is Set, everyone is thrilled except me

[Mommy2Ps 4]

My revision date from band to sleeve is set for 2/19. Everyone around me is excited, if not a little jealous that my insurance covers it, but I'm still on the fence. Let me rephrase that, I KNOW it's happening, but I feel so apprehensive about it because I was told I "might not lose a lot of weight, but it will stop me from gaining." Losing half of my stomach can NOT be reversed...and to only stop from gaining weight back?! Ugh. I think that's my big road block. It's so final.

[Pookeyism 1,143]

How about this - the smallest pic I have in here is with, by many people's standards, even alot of people on here, I still have a ways to go to be "ideal".

Go take a look - one of those pics is me in my fighting garb - I swordfight again, like a 20 year old. I kick ass and take names. Another pic is of me doing acro-yoga.

If all I ever did was maintained from here, and I asked YOU if that was worth it for ME - what does it look like in those pics...look at the one where I am too big for my Husband to wrap his arms around me...then look at the one where I am FLYING...

It's not easy. Was it any time you have ever tried? How hard is too hard? How hard, really, is harder than where you are now?

Good luck. God bless.

[Mommy2Ps 4]

I understand what you're saying- and nothing anyone can say here is going to change the decision I've made to follow through with this. I KNOW I can't go back to where I was. I know this. It's just disheartening to hear from your surgeon that although you're removing half your stomach, you "might not lose a lot of weight". How is that even an option to NOT lose weight?! My fear is that since I'm a revision, I won't be successful as if I was a WLS virgin.

I've gained weight. None of my clothes fit me. I'm back on BP meds. I KNOW what needs to be done, and I'm doing it on 2/19. I guess I'm just looking for those success stories from other successful banders who have gone on to be successful sleevers.