I pigged out!

[himalaya62 221]

Hi everyone, I am still waiting from the final word and authorization number from United Health Care. I have long since finished all my testing. The wait is killing me! Instead of preparing to my new diet I am eating every thing in sight thinking this is the last time I will ever eat this, do this, drink that, etc. Today I had a stack of blueberry pancakes, then we went to a hockey game and I had a hot dog, nachos, two beers, and then afterwards we went to a burger joint and I shared a cheeseburger and fries with my husband and had a root beer float. What am I thinking? I never ever ate like this even though I am obese. I felt sick to my stomach but I keep justifying "this is the last time ever I will be able to do this! I even broke down and cried this morning at Bob Evans before my pancakes arrived. Is this normal behavior right before you get a surgical date? I am do sad I will never be able to have beer and diet coke again. Not even a taste???? Please tell me this is just a minor freaking out session.

[TheGamer 406]

Sounds about right to me. The week before I started my pre-op diet, I had a food funeral. Every day I ate out, sometimes ate all my meals out, always somewhere different and always something that I knew I wouldn't be eating for a long time... if ever again.

food, which my life used to revolve around, is now just kind of this thing I do. I could go and eat the things I ate that week, but I choose not to because that all consuming hunger that used to be there no matter what I did... is gone. I don't want to risk going back and becoming the person I used to be. I didn't go through this to go back to eating what I ate. Yeah, I've had a bite of pizza (it was delicious!) and I had some some really good deserts (just a teaspoon or two) but my fear of failing is greater than my love of food.

[Randydec27 23]

we all do it to a point so dont feel bad, you will do great after your op !!

[karlafaye 4]

I was exactly the same I didn't do a pre op diet I even had a nandos day before my op! I'm now 4 days out of surgery and food actually makes me feel sick it litrally changes over night ur reletionship with food don't worry x

[Oakleygirl 53]

I am also finding that I'm having a food panic, worrying about never getting to eat certain foods again or ever really having a full meal! I like the term the other sleevers use, calling it a "food funeral"... just can't wrap my head around the fact that I likely won't WANT the same foods... my head keeps thinking it will just be the same old me, cravings, desire to binge, big appetite, just with a smaller stomach! Every time I read a post from a sleever that says they no longer want to eat certain foods or food just doesn't thrill them, I start to believe it a bit more b/c that many people who have done it can't be lying!!!! Then I wonder if they are happy about it, but then I think that I've used food for my happiness for too long and I should eat to live... not live to eat. So indulge now b/c that is what you feel you need to do and be prepared for you new "tool" to help you manage what you are worrying about... that's how I am looking at it! Good luck to us both!

[sarahzamudio1091 185]

I did the sand thing lol

[delta_girl 931]

I kinda did the same thing. Two weeks pre op my surgeon's nurse told me I had better not gain any weight prior to surgery. I believe that she was warning me that he would nor proceed the day of surgery if I had gained.

So I had lots of food funerals but with a strong dose of fear. I had ice cream, sushi, Indian, steak, candy, cake, doughnuts, fried foods, ...even things that I would never normally want to eat. But I tried to keep the portions much smaller than usual, I was exercising a lot and I would cut back on the other meals of the day. I lost 4 lbs even during that crazy time.

[Jennifer Bunt 1]

As everyone Has said you are not alone we all do it to one point or another. The dietician at my Dr.s office even Mentioned that it is in a sense "Normal" Pre-op behavior all though they tell you to try to avoid it. I just think its part of our human make up especially if we all love food and I am sure none of us got here not Loving food for one reason or another..But Just like KarlaFaye said Your appetite truly does change post op. Foods I used to love to eat I can't bear to even look at. I used to Love Sweets and now If something is to sweet when I try to even taste it I can't even Swallow it. Don't worry. Take your time and work with the Tool!! You will do Fine!!!

[shawn9x9 16]

You will be okay I think we all have been there my surgery was on the 8th and I have to force myself to eat. I went to Burger King yesterday fed my daughter , my wife ate I didn't get tempted or even felt hungry . You will eventually get to eat everything in moderation . But you will be surprised how much u r body helps you . Hell I had chicken parmigiana and Pasta 2 days before my surgery ...... Lol now I have to force myself to eat plus I'm learning good eating habits I stopped taking insulin what more can I ask for.

[MsFab1988 275]

One month before my preop diet I went on a 7 day cruise...I remember my boyfriend and I eating so much that by dinner time he was too full to eat. He said he was skipping dinner and I freaked out! I haddd to have dinner!!!! (even though I wasnt even hungry) we faught and I ended up going to the buffet by myself lol...then ofcourse we ate pizza and Cookies later that night, I was just addicted to food...luckily for me I went to the gym on the cruise and tried to eat in small portions at times(therefore I had only gained 4 pounds) when I came back home from the cruise, I needed more food funerals...I ate big macs for no reason, pizza, french fries, oreos....I remember eating the whole carton of chineese food all by myself, and I mean all of it! I literally forced myself to consume it all. I had a bad stomache ache and just remember feeling really depressed as hell. Damn I remember that day like it was yesterday....Anyways long story short I started my liquid diet 1 week early because of my food funeral lol I didnt want my doctor to notice that I gained weight! So I did 3 weeks of liquids...I lost the 4 pounds and some more (prob like 16 pounds or so)

Now I am almost 7 months post op! Since the cruise until today, I have lost 80 pounds! I do not think of food, I do not care for food the way I use to...I dont really like eating all that much...I just wanna see my body get sexier...It takes time but within a few months ur mind changes along with ur new body...U have the mentality of a healthy person. All you wanna do is excersize, feel fit and light....You will be amazed TRUST ME