chitowngirl 886 Posted December 20, 2012 Truth is I never realized how fat I was until I wasn't fat. Don't get me wrong i still got a way to go to goal. But in my eyes, I carried it well or I really wasn't that big. The truth is I was in denial big time. Truth is I threw up for the second time post sleeve (9 months post op) and I'm not sure if I should log the food I threw up.. Truth is I read a lot of post, but don't respond to a lot. I usually only post replies on updates with pictures. Truth is when a person says I lost 40 pounds and nobody says anything. It's because it prob not that noticeable. I thought it -30 was a big deal, but in all honesty looking at he pictures it wasn't all that noticeable. 4 twoolley, CowgirlJane, HoosierGirl and 1 other reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Geminidrive 389 Posted December 20, 2012 "Truth is when a person says I lost 40 pounds and nobody says anything. It's because it prob not that noticeable. I thought it -30 was a big deal, but in all honesty looking at he pictures it wasn't all that noticeable." I agree! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Butterthebean 8,146 Posted December 20, 2012 I totally relate. I was bigger than I thought I was....way bigger. Now I am skinnier than I think I am. I turned sideways the other day to "squeeze" through 2 fence posts and I missed them both by a mile. There was room for 2 of me in there but I didn't think there was going to be. The other day a friend asked me why I was still walking like a fat guy. I didn't think I was. In my mind's eye I am as graceful as a swan. LOL 10 danyelleb, amytug, CowgirlJane and 7 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SweetnCurvy 112 Posted January 2, 2013 Truth is I never realized how fat I was until I wasn't fat. Don't get me wrong i still got a way to go to goal. But in my eyes' date=' I carried it well or I really wasn't that big. The truth is I was in denial big time. Truth is I threw up for the second time post sleeve (9 months post op) and I'm not sure if I should log the food I threw up.. Truth is I read a lot of post, but don't respond to a lot. I usually only post replies on updates with pictures. Truth is when a person says I lost 40 pounds and nobody says anything. It's because it prob not that noticeable. I thought it -30 was a big deal, but in all honesty looking at he pictures it wasn't all that noticeable. [/quote'] Yeah its so crazy how we can have this distorted view of the way we really look. I was totally in denial about how I big I was. 1 Pelekania reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
danyelleb 386 Posted January 2, 2013 Truth is I never realized how fat I was until I wasn't fat. Don't get me wrong i still got a way to go to goal. But in my eyes' date=' I carried it well or I really wasn't that big. The truth is I was in denial big time. [/quote'] Isn't it crazy? I was the same way. Sadly my hubs and good friends seemed to be in denial too! the other day we were looking at pix and I heard a lot of "I can't believe u were that big.". It's funny how we adjust our mindset. I actually had a couple peeps prior to surgery tell me "ur not big enough for something so extreme." yeah, I was big enough. Crazies. Sent from my iPhone using VST 1 HoosierGirl reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
cataro 39 Posted January 2, 2013 I can totally relate! In my head I was only a little overweight. I have also come to realize that I have no full length mirrors in my house that run vertically, hmmm.... Gonna have to change that. 2 SummerMarie and lil lee reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
SummerMarie 89 Posted January 2, 2013 It really is crazy how you don't realize how big you are until you either look at pictures or someone points it out. I ran into a friend of my parents at my daughters dance class.. her niece is the teacher and her grand daughter goes there as well.. she commented how great I looked ( her husband was sleeved the day before me) and kept saying how she couldn't believe how beautiful I was.... Haha I know she didn't mean anything by it but it came out funny! I have a ways to go but I can agree its shocking when you look back. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CowgirlJane 14,260 Posted January 2, 2013 It wasn't until last week that I caught myself in the mirror at the mall and thought it was someone else that I REALLY felt like I am pretty normal looking now. I still see fat when I look at a photo or myself. A friend told me to throw those shoulders back and smile, I still try to hide my bulk and it is not flattering! When I was 300# I knew I was huge, but looking back at photos SHOCKS me. It also shocks others in my family, they have a hard time remembering me so huge either. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ChristineR 128 Posted January 2, 2013 I haven't had surgery yet but I was just telling the psychologist the same thing. I know I'm fat but I don't feel fat until I see a mirror or pictures. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lessofmeismore 1,405 Posted January 2, 2013 The extra skin reminds me every day how big I was....aaahhhh... Oh well, it is what it is Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Catracks 865 Posted January 2, 2013 I know how big I was and now I cannot EVEN imagine trying to walk carrying 100 pounds on my back. The extra skin bums me out at times, but I try to imagine it as a badge of honor and proof of how far I've come. 1 JerseyGirl68 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
vsginnj 415 Posted January 2, 2013 Truth is I never realized how fat I was until I wasn't fat. Don't get me wrong i still got a way to go to goal. But in my eyes' date=' I carried it well or I really wasn't that big. The truth is I was in denial big time. Truth is I threw up for the second time post sleeve (9 months post op) and I'm not sure if I should log the food I threw up.. Truth is I read a lot of post, but don't respond to a lot. I usually only post replies on updates with pictures. Truth is when a person says I lost 40 pounds and nobody says anything. It's because it prob not that noticeable. I thought it -30 was a big deal, but in all honesty looking at he pictures it wasn't all that noticeable. [/quote'] I have several friends in Chicago so your name cought my attention I remember the pic u had for your profile put that next to the new one you have you will see a difference for sure. You look great!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Rileysmama 6 Posted January 2, 2013 It may not b noticeable but still something to b proud of!!! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
gettinMeBack 380 Posted January 2, 2013 I can relate to this also Cuz I didn't know u was as big as I was until I got small smh im so glad I did this surgery now I feel so good! ! I look in the mirror and stop and look again like is that really me! ? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lessofmeismore 1,405 Posted January 2, 2013 We went to see a concert and the seats were ridiculously tiny and the path in front of the isle was impossible small. I was actually consumed the entire time about it. People pay all this money and its horrible. Now that being said I fit in my seat no problem, I was able to escape mid performance, for a bathroom break, graciously. But if I had not lost my weight I would have been SOL Still made me made the entire time because I saw people struggle and I sympathize 1 SummerMarie reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites