Ok. Its Getting Weird Now!!!

wyldvelia · September 18, 2006

OK. NOT WIERD. I GUESS THIS JUST TELLS ME IM ON THE RIGHT TRACK. I WAS 234 PRE-BAND AND A SIZE 18. FIRST TIME IN MY LIFE THAT I HAVE BEEN AN 18. ARG. HATED IT. IM NOW AT 190. IM IN SIZE 14 JEANS. I CAN WEAR A BELT OVER MY BLOUSY BLOUSES. NOW PEOPLE ARE NOTICING THE DIFFERENCE IN ME. MY SISTER DOESNT LIKE IT. 'why am i losing weight?' 'what am i on?' I WALK BETTER. I LOOK BETTER IN CLOTHES. I FEEL WIERD. LIKE I DONT DESERVE TO BE THINNER. IS THAT FUNNY OR WHAT? I WAS BANDED 3/24/2006 AND IM DOWN 44LBS. MY NIECES THAT KNOW IVE HAD SURGERY KEEP TELLING ME TO GET RID OF MY 'FAT' CLOTHES. IM EMOTIONALLY ATTACHED TO THEM. I CAN TELL YOU HOW OLD SO MANY OF MY CLOTHES ARE. HOW I WAS FEELING WHEN I BOUGHT THEM, YADA X 3. IM A LITTLE EMOTIONAL. ON THE VERGE OF TEARS TODAY. DONT GET ME WRONG, I LOVE BEING 44LBS LIGHTER. MY DR.S GOAL FOR ME IS TO BE 170LBS. IM WITHIN 20LBS. I HAVE NOT EXCERCISED AT ALL. I START CURVES TONIGHT, SO I KNOW I WILL NOW START TO LOSE INCHES AT A FASTER RATE. GET TONED. BUILD A LITTLE MUSCLE. (THEN I CAN SAY THAT IM LOSING CUZ IM EXCERCISING).

swanny · September 18, 2006

your sister is just jealous...i know I'll probably have this problem with my sister as well since we are the two big ones in the family. She'll think i've abandened her some way. But no way am i telling anyone in my family what i've had done.

I can't wait till I can clean out my closet and get rid of big clothes!!! I don't want them around because i'm never going back to that place again. I think of all the times I worried about how I looked going out, pulling my shirt down further to cover myself more..those clothes don't make me feel good about myself.

I can't wait to build up a closet full of clothes in one size, stuff that will fit year after year.

I'm going to keep one pair of pants as a reminder of a place i never want to be again.

I got banded for me..so I'm going to live the life I wanted...and unsupportive people can say what they want because I'll be having too much fun living to care what they think!!!

wyldvelia · September 18, 2006

ok. heres the plan, k? i should of done this from the beginning. start to tell people: im so hungry, but im cutting back. every once in a while, just throw in a " geez im hungry". that way, when you start to really drop the lbs, they will already be condtioned to your weight loss. i should of done that. two neices and a close girlfriend know ive been banded. none of my family knows. i have found out that having 'someone' know is good. i really really try not to bore my few confidants, but its hard. like i have to share the daily/weekly successes im going through. good luck to you! -r