hm734 228 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess I'm starting to wonder why I did this too myself. I confess I don't like feeling sick after trying to eat just a tiny bit of tuna! I confess I have never really been a down in feeling person but here latey I feel terrible I confess I miss hanging out eating & drinking with friends. I confess I'm so afraid of feeling sick that I don't eat much I confess I confess I confess I confess I confess I confess! WHY! This post could have come from me a week or two ago. Every single day it gets a little better, I promise. Hang in there! 2 Kalimomof3 and Strangefruit reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
littlebits 154 Posted August 17, 2012 This post could have come from me a week or two ago. Every single day it gets a little better' date=' I promise. Hang in there![/quote'] It really does...we're not just trying to make you feel better. 1 Miriam reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
littlebits 154 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess that I fear that my 30 lb loss will be my only loss. I confess that I absolutely hate exercising, but I force myself to do it anyway. I confess that I do not torture myself. If I want something, I have it (in moderation, of course). Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Jewels 3 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess: that I obsess over food too much still I confess: that my biggest fear is not to lose the weight I confess : that I haven't pushed past my failures yet (although I have lost 45 lb) I confess: that I hated exercise but am not realizing that I can't succeed without it I confess that I probably eat to fast still. There I've cleaned out mt closet of confessions! Thanks for understanding 1 Miriam reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Aussiegirl 580 Posted August 17, 2012 1. I confess this thread makes me both laugh and feel sad in equal measure 2. I confess, I eat junk food and enjoy all 3 bites of it and then I am done til the next week. I dont deny my body anything anymore. 3. I confess even tho life is more challenging now, I love the person I have become over the last 11 months 4. I confess I am now a size 14/16 Aus (12/14 US) and am happy and comfortable at this size, if I never loose anymore weight or size I will be ok with it 5. I confess I have days when this journey is hard (physically and emotionally) but for everyone of those days I have 15 good ones....but really that is just life 6. Throwing in another one for good measure...I confess I drink alcohol and I like it too...life is about having everything in moderation. 1 Birdy18 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
sexyme 24 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess I love this thread. I confess I can't wait to become a freak again. Including having sex every where I can think of. I'm pre op... My surgery is Tuesday and I'm scared I confess I think I won't lose the weight like I should I confess I want to have sex with someone other than my husband I confess I will have another confession later 2 Sleeved&Hopeful and tonya9969 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
MamaMelly 97 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess I am 15 days post op and irritated I have only lost 12 lbs. I confess I know that is irrational. I confess I miss food everyday. I confess I'm both elated and frightened that I seem to have a sleeve of steel. I confess I'm scared to be thin as I have no idea what's that like. 2 CNTWT2BMINIME and Sharon's last chance reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Wolfgirl1978 256 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess that I think my husband's eating habits are gross, and unattractive I confess that I miss smoking....a lot. I confess I have dreams about over eating, and my sleeve bursting open and killing me. I confess I feel lonely. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CNTWT2BMINIME 78 Posted August 17, 2012 This thread is great! It makes me feel so normal. :-) Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
goofycathy 89 Posted August 17, 2012 I confess that I haven't counted calories or Protein or anything else since surgery (9weeks ago) I focus on eating Protein and getting fluids in., but I have no idea exactly how muchim getting. I confess that because of the first reason I'm pretty sure that is why I've only lost 34lbs. I'm extremely concerned that I will be here next year saying how much I regret the sleeve and all I've lost is 35lbs and $5500 I confess I have a cup of coffee with half and half every morning and at some point between my other fluids I have iced tea. I also use a straw when drinking it. I confess that I've never been able to lose 34lbs on my own EVER, yet I still don't beliebe when people say they can tell I've lost weight. I'm convinced they are only saying that because they think I expect them to say it. I certainly can't see the loss so I'm sure they are lying about hat they see. I confess that I'm extremely frustrated that when I had surgery I was wearing a size 24 pants and now, 34lbs later I'm barely into a 22, and it's a tight 22 at that. I confess that out of 9 weeks, I've stalled twice, both times for almost ten days each, almost three weeks of not losing anything but confidence in this sleeve! 2 Sleeved&Hopeful and dar1983 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
sassypants 674 Posted August 18, 2012 i have one more to add hehe it’s a little mean! I confess that I can’t wait for my mean mean nasty sister to see me smaller! I have always been big my whole life and she bullied me (only person ever too) I mean name calling kicking me hitting me very very nasty mean human being. She was always super skinny in the past 2 years she piled on weight and is a uk 20/22. She has no idea I had the op never will (she doesn;t get told anything about my life by me or anyone in my family) she hardly comes by or to family things but when I do eventually see her which could be a year from now I know I am gonna be smaller and wayyyyyyy smaller than she has ever seen me and half my family can’t wait to see the look on her face when I am no longer the fat whale she used to call me and i am smaller than her. I said it was mean but its also true and makes me meanly snicker at the thought lol 11 kwindham, liz32, dar1983 and 8 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
lasuber 36 Posted August 18, 2012 I confess that I haven't exercised but twice. I confess that I could eat an entire chocolate cake. I confess that I want a diet coke soooo bad! I confess that I don't sleep as much as I used to. I confess I am tired of Water, I confess that I am scared of being thin, even though I can't wait! 2 royalsecret and Sleeved&Hopeful reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
makemyownluck 785 Posted August 18, 2012 You will do just fine. Not sure if you have heard but after a significant amount of weight loss its easy to get pregnant....also I was a basket case before surgery and I am one of the fortunate ones that did not have any pain other than my first two days. Best Wishes Thanks, Trcyprkr. I do know that it may be easier to get pregnant after weight loss. I'm more concerned with the permanent damage to my self esteem to ever want to date again. I haven't dated in years and I'm at the point where I don't want to be touched - or looked at, for that matter. I also confess that I fear never being in a significant relationship because I dislike my physical self so much. Probably TMI, but that's more along the lines of what I mean... I'm glad I'm not the only basket case out here! Girl, you cut to my heart with this one! lol Growing up I always wanted multiple children but as I got older and realized how much work and energy goes into it I knew I couldn't handle it. I barely have enough energy to take care of myself. Furthermore, I knew at my (old) weight it would not be healthy to carry a child. The past few years I started telling everyone I didn't want kids. I think I started to believe it. Now I don't know what I want or believe but I'm letting the idea creep back into my head a little bit. It's scary, I know. I've always said I don't want kids, when really i don't want A BABY. I like my sleep! I don't like the idea of trusting a babysitter with a child that can't talk to me and tell me if they're being taken care of properly. A kid, I'd love a kid. As I get older and have a closer bond with my mom, I kinda wish I had the same thing, a kid that would grow up to be an adult, having a hand at raising someone to be a productive member of society... I'd love THAT. But finding a man to marry? Getting married? Giving up my singledom? Giving up my living alonedom? Having a baby wake me up several times a night? No thanks! lol! That said, the idea of not having a child (and factor in that I'm an only child myself), I get nervous thinking about what my life will be like after my parents are gone... it makes me incredibly sad to think about being alone. I appreciate everyone letting me express myself here. It's therapeutic and so many of you are supportive and kind. Thank you so much! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
kmbrlycool 214 Posted August 18, 2012 i confess i almost always forget to take my vitamins i cofess that i don't take my caltrate because it makes a nasty taste in my mouth i confess that i sometimes have Protein Bars because i can't get enough Protein in (plus, i like the taste of the chocolate) i confess that i have been on a iced Decaf coffee bing (not soo bad, because it's decaf, i use skim milk, and sweet and low...but bad because i have pre-ulcers) i confess that i use a straw daily i confess that i sometimes drink and eat i confess that i have been eating too many carbs lately i confess that i love the compliments i get at work i confess that i love that others at work are looking up to me as an inspiration i confess that even though i'm wasting a lot of money on clothes - because i'm so excited to shop, and can only wear the clothes for a few weeks, it feels damn good i confess that i CAN gulp water i confess that i have chewed a few pieces of gum i confess that i am scared of the gallbladder issues i'm having i confess that my sex life really hasn't changed at all i confess that i can now lick my toe! i confess that i sort of purposefully don't want to see people for a while, and then see them again so that they can say wow.... i confess that i make my husband save some of the crust from his pizza for me, so that I can sort of feel normal i confess that i have lost 100 pounds as of today i confess that i think my anxiety has gotten better since the sleeve i confess that i'm able to play around with little kids on the floor now, and chase after them, which i couldn't do before i confess that i like the attention i receive from getting this surgery and losing weight i confess that i have somewhat more confidence i confess that when i look in the mirror i don't always see the 100 pound weight loss - working on fixing my mind i confess that i can fit in chairs that i didn't fit in before i confess that i weigh myself every day i confess that i weigh myself pre and post bathroom (and yes, i always weigh the same) i confess that sometimes i get mad because i can't eat more of the delicious food i'm eating i confess that i still have bad head hunger, and still sometimes eat out of boredom - working on that i confess that i haven't exerciesd in 2 weeks i confess that i don't plan on going to my NUT regularly now, because my 90 free membership is over, and it would cost too much money i confess that i am happy wtih the results thus far, and can't wait to see what happens in my future! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LindaS 316 Posted August 18, 2012 i confess that i can now lick my toe! I confess that I immediately had to try this, and I can too. 5 p77tmey, Lissa, Sleeved&Hopeful and 2 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites