Body Dysmorphia In Reverse

[SweetTee 448]

OMG! I was just mentioning to my DH that I used to look at myself and think I looked like a fuller Jessica Simpson. Except, that I see now that I acutally look like Homer Simpson (what with my abdomen being all round and now being a pear-shaped instead of hourglass).

I can so relate to this. I mean when I see myself in pictures, I'm like who the heck is that! I can hardly believe that it's me. I wonder, man did other people see this, OMG they must be horrified! I don't think it really sinks in initially. When I started taking before pictures of myself, I couldn't believe my eyes. I dare not post them until I have some after pictures to soften the blow! LOL

[TiredOfChubRub 21]

NAKED...I don't see it until I look at myself in the mirror in the buff. Then I am like, "who is that fatty staring back at you?" I was smoking hot in college, and I have slowly let myself gain 5-7 lbs a year for the last 15 years and it has added up to a nice apple shaped body. I cannot wait for this surgery to happen so people stop judging this book by its cover.

[Happy Camper 266]

Very interesting topic. I too did not see how big I had gotten until I saw a couple pics (rare), one in particular with my daughter. Is it some sort of mental protection?

Then the other day, my hubby took a clseup of my face and showed me...guess what I saw? I had a BIG nose. I did not notice the fat cheeks were gone, I noticed I had a big flipping nose. Oh well, today I weighed in at 198, that is 105 down and I feel great. I started this to feel healthy and get off blood pressure meds, and no longer be pre-diabetic. I have done damage to my knees and feet, but it is all okay.

I know the next 30 years of my life will be fantastic! And I wish the very best to everyone on our journey.

[chitowngirl 885]

I can totally relate. I started to realize how big I really was post op and I started losing weight. I feel like I'm still big, I can't get over the fact that I was actually bigger than I am right now. I also hated being in pictures that was like reality bi/ch slapping me in the face and I just couldn't handle it.

[Marty McSkinnystein 342]

I can so relate to this. I mean when I see myself in pictures, I'm like who the heck is that! I can hardly believe that it's me. I wonder, man did other people see this, OMG they must be horrified! I don't think it really sinks in initially. When I started taking before pictures of myself, I couldn't believe my eyes. I dare not post them until I have some after pictures to soften the blow! LOL

Well yeah and notice how most of us use the pics. from skinnier days or in my case I'm great with Photobooth and just play around with tilting my head until my chins are gone.

[TiredOfChubRub 21]

Oh, and I have totally noticed that my nose has gotten wider and bigger since I have gained so much weight. I wonder if it will shrink as I shrink?

[SleeveandRNYchica 1,155]

I totally relate and feel the same way...then I see a picture on FB next to my size 6 friend and I thing OMG....i am fat. I think too because I am a pear, I carry the weight "well" but, at the end of the day 260lbs on a 5'6 frame whether it is small or big boned is a lot of weight. But then I go home and look and my mirror and it is like a trick mirror!

But I weigh what professional football and basketball players weigh. NOT CUTE>

[Banned member 320]

Well yeah and notice how most of us use the pics. from skinnier days

HAHA I'm guilty as charged. I think I weighed about 195 in my profile pic

[myownjourney 47]

How many of you ask your closest people, "Hey, see that woman, I'm not as big as her am I?" And you happen to pick the biggest person so they say "No way!!!" LOL

Lol omg I really thought that I was the only one who did this lmao... I've skated by on a nice figure... I have a nice shape that I know to be true because I see in even in the pictures but at the end of the day I'm 300+ lbs and that's an issue... I feel like no matter what I do I'll always be pretty and sexy but I really need to get this weight off because diabetes isn't sexy at all

[myownjourney 47]

This is also why I'm constantly taking pictures of myself ... Other people think that I do it because I'm cocky but I really do it to show myself what I really look like... If I get a lil too cocky I take a picture and get back focused on losing weight... It's like when I sing and think I sound great but then I record myself and realize that I sound like dying cats loo

[ashleyxx 277]

This is also why I'm constantly taking pictures of myself ... Other people think that I do it because I'm cocky but I really do it to show myself what I really look like... If I get a lil too cocky I take a picture and get back focused on losing weight... It's like when I sing and think I sound great but then I record myself and realize that I sound like dying cats loo

Lol I do the same thing! Im always asking my sister too and afterwards Im thinking "God she thinks shes sooo hott" I just want to have alot of pictures for progress and also to see if I can notice any difference.

Taking pictures has helped me so much though, because most of the time when I look in the mirror I dont see it, but looking and compareing pictures help so much. Im still mad I lost my measurements that I took had pre-op

[myownjourney 47]

Yeah I'm pre-op now... And I'm scared to take my measurements... And the worse thing is that I have my bf and friends hyping me up making me think that I look ok... And when I told them about the surgery they tell me that I don't need it .. I can diet and exercise (both are extremely thin) but I have been dieting and exercising for years and the weight just comes back... I can't wait for then to see me after I lose weight so they'll finally realize how big I truly am

[5DoxieMom 87]

Yeah I'm pre-op now... And I'm scared to take my measurements... And the worse thing is that I have my bf and friends hyping me up making me think that I look ok... And when I told them about the surgery they tell me that I don't need it .. I can diet and exercise (both are extremely thin) but I have been dieting and exercising for years and the weight just comes back... I can't wait for then to see me after I lose weight so they'll finally realize how big I truly am

You should take your measurements....I didn't, and now I wish that I had. I'm 4 months out. IMO....don't listen to naturally skinny people....they dont' get it.

[myownjourney 47]

Lol I think I might take my measurements in private and in a very secret location lol... And. I know not to take wl advice from skinny people just as I don't take relationship advice from people who are never in relationships lol

[ashleyxx 277]

Yeah I'm pre-op now... And I'm scared to take my measurements... And the worse thing is that I have my bf and friends hyping me up making me think that I look ok... And when I told them about the surgery they tell me that I don't need it .. I can diet and exercise (both are extremely thin) but I have been dieting and exercising for years and the weight just comes back... I can't wait for then to see me after I lose weight so they'll finally realize how big I truly am

Seems like that is alot of peoples response when we mention WLS, I got that from a few people. My BF isnt overweight, when we first meet he was maybe 40-50 pounds over weight, he has lost about 40 and now when I look at pictures I can definantly tell a difference, I told him before he lost that I never looked at him like that, and its almost like I seen him how I see him now, weird I know.

Sometimes I think he forgets how big I was, I will show him pictures and he is amazed, hes llike "Damn your so tiny now!" Not tiny, but hopefully getting there soon lol