Sabotaging Myself!

[tjmom 200]

Hitting the "reset" button in my brain helped so much...just writing this down was so important...

Talked to my psych doctor yesterday afternoon...that helped me accept some hidden issues...due to my disability he did a phone visit because i didn't have a ride to office...

Thank you all for your words of support....

[twistedkitten25 27]

I feel pretty guilty too...been incorporating simple carbs back into my diet (still eating Protein first) and I keep having to lie down after eating because im eating too fast...any tips on how to break myself?

[Randi 21]

I'm very familar with the "I have to lay down now, honey" phase. I haven't beat it yet. At home we generally eat in front of the TV so I eat fast. I have no problem at work because I usually am working when I eat and then it takes 2 hours. I can seem to eat slow at restaurants but for some reason at home it just doesn't work for me.

Today I've been snacking too much so I need to leave the Snacks at home!! Gosh there is a lot to learn, huh!!!

[tjmom 200]

Twisted and Randi.....yes there is so much to learn and so much to unlearn .... Everyone has different "signals" to know we are close to: one bite to much/lay down awhile..... For me, when i feel like i ""need to take a drink of something or i can't eat another bite"" that is my signal... Full! ... it took me 6 weeks to figure this out... Be patient with yourself, you will find your "signal".

[Sannah 258]

Here's the thing....i was doing great....then we decided to host a BBQ this Saturday....

I am disabled' date=' so i am not around other people..unless i choose to ....

i have hid behind my weight all my life...((my husband asked me once, "if you could be ANY action hero. Who would you want to be?"....my response, without hesitation "The invisible man"....

In the past, when we have had a BBQ ... Due to my weight, i could pretty much be invisible...My husband is the social one.. <img src='http://www.bariatricpal.com/public/style_emoticons/<#EMO_DIR#>/smile.png' class='bbc_emoticon' alt='' /> ...but i am worried that my weight loss is going to be a topic of conversation...and people are going to be wanting to "talk" to me all afternoon...

So....i have been eating foods and NOT putting them on MFP .... And/Or telling my husband what i ate during the day...

It depresses me that i so easily returned to bad habits so quickly....my sleeve will be 8 weeks old on Wednesday...and i have gained 3 pounds....

i am hoping by posting this thread, i will shame myself into getting back on track...

Thank you for letting me tell on myself...[/quote']

Maybe an accountability partner? Someone you don't know. You text or e-mail. You could ask your partner to randomly e-mail or text you during each day to make sure your logging.

I keep up to date when I know some one will ask because I don't want to let them down.

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[tjmom 200]

Sannah ... That is a great idea... Love this site and people on it.... So helpful and full of guidance... Thank you

[Sannah 258]

Sannah ... That is a great idea... Love this site and people on it.... So helpful and full of guidance... Thank you

No problem. If you want a partner I can text. No offensive if this isn't for you. Just want to do what I can to support others.

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[cantwaittolose 163]

TJmom and all....I LOVE THIS SITE and all it's support! I have a suggestion to look into Cognative Behavior Therapy (CBT)...it has helped me get this point of knowing that after surgery I have 1 more tool to use that I have learned through this....it's about changing your thinking, behavior, and emotional responses to your thinking....afterall, I think we can all agree, the stuggle with our weight is 99.9% in our heads...at least the last 25 year has been for me. it doesn't have anything to do with food, food is just the "drug" I choose to deal with those feelings and emotions...hope this helps!

Trust in yourself and KNOW that you are worth it! ...we all know you are!!!!