Wheezy Whispers-AKA September's Goals

[CLOE 0]

I've struggled with every addiction in my life except, alcohol and drugs. But had every other one out there!! A couple months ago, I relapsed a bit with the gambling thing, but got back out of it after a couple of days, Whew!! Before I got the band, probably around my 40th birthday I decided I was not going to lie to myself anymore. I was going to face the facts, take an account of what was up, and face the truth! Since my birthday, just over a year ago, I......put myself on anti-depressents, quit gambling, allowed myself to lower my wall to the world (I am who I am), got my lap-band. It's not been easy every day, but WOW, my life is tenfold compared to a year ago. Im happy because I face the truth!! That being said, I believe thats why I only relapse at the casino a couple of days, I actually couldnt stomache it anymore. Walked out!!

My point is.....I somewhat believe the transfer is true. It's probably easier to get it together before, but if not, the band will open your eyes to the next battle! My advice to the world.....Believe in yourself, Listen to yourself, accept yourself and love yourself!!

Okay, how's that for therapy? lol...that'll be $55.00 from each of ya!!

[Yasmina 0]

Cloe,

Those are great words to live by. It is wonderful to here how you were able to pull everything together and get your life in order.

You set a great example.

Great Job !!!!

Yasmina

Your check is in the mail !!!

Yasmina

[Wheezy 0]

Cloe,

I'm also sending you a cheque. It may take a while for you to get it, you know, it's a postal service thing! LOL

[argon 3]

Cloe, you're cheap. Sign me up for some more sessions. :cool:

[Wheezy 0]

Well I haven't talked about my second fill until now. It will be 1 week tomorrow since my second fill. I have noticed more restriction some days and some days, HOLY COW!!!, can't get much down. I had a meeting in Ottawa today, so I had Breakfast before I left. I had 1 egg and 1 piece of toast, it went down OK. I left early so that I could do a little bit of shopping, went to costco and then the St Laurent Shopping Mall. I was starved by then so I went to the food court. I walked around for a while trying to decide what I could probably tolerate. I decided on a chicken slouvaki. Grilled chicken, with a Greek salad and it was served with rice. Well... I had the first bite of chicken... then a second and then the pain started. I barely made it to the washroom. This cycle continued for about 1 hour, the slime and the pbs. I didn't know if I could make the meeting, but luckily it did subside and I was able to make it. This has never happened to me. The thoughts that were going through my head were, I did not overeat, I chewed well, so why is this happening? I could hear Dr. M saying to me that the objective was to sustain satiety for longer periods of time. I was starved before I ate, so why was this happening?

OK I've been traumatized. This was a first of many more (probably). I hope not. This would have been very embarrassing if it was a meeting that lunch was provided. I can hear myself, "I will have to be excused so that I can go slime and pb for a while". "How long? I have no idea, last time it lasted an hour." After this experience, I will be reluctant to eat before meetings.

[green 6]

Those are good words, Cloe. Thanx.

[argon 3]

Oh Wheezy... welcome :cool: Yeah, you'll want to be careful eating in situations like that. If I have to, I'll order something that's easy, like Soup... I take forever to eat it, and am still eating by the time everyone else is done their 'real' meals, but I'm usually ok with it.

You might not be chewing as well as you think you are... and maybe that you were sooooo hungry, you went a little too fast, or bit a little more than you should have? You'll probably have to reevaluate everything you've taught yourself so far, and change things now that you've got some restriction!

(like me in the good old days, realizing I *COULD* eat Subway (a 6", maybe half of another = 9") {haha, yeah yeah, I know guys...} ?! I thought I was set for life... subway ALL the time! Then I got my last fill, and now can have maybe 2-3 bites of a sub). Be that as it may, I'm STILL gonna go to Quizno's when I go home for Xmas, and I'll eat a sub if it takes me all week. I miss it sooooo...

[Wheezy 0]

Thanks for the advice Mandi, maybe I did not chew as well as I thought. Soup it is from now on. How do you deal with if you are invited to someones home for a meal?

[argon 3]

haha... that's funny. I haven't been! I guess I'd just take a little bit of whatever the meat is, hope and pray that its ok, maybe have some veggies or salad. Or just don't go! Claim to not be feeling too good... ?

[Yoda 0]

Cloe....$55 for a session? You ARE cheap!! Hmmmmm I've heard that somewhere else about you!!!

Wheezy: Ottawa is one of my hometowns.....I loooove St Laurent Mall!!

Yeah, you maybe were hungrier than you thought so chewed quicker without realizing it (I've done that too). Until you get a "handle" on things you will have to be careful....the question about how do you handle going to someone's house for dinner? As Elmer Fudd would say, "veeeewwwwwy vewwwwwwy carefuuuuly" If you aren't "sure" you can always fake the "upset tummy" thing and not eat much (if at all)....or pretend! LOL. It won't always be like that though, so don't worry.

Maaaaaaaaaaaaaaan, I am sooooo damn fortunate....because I have read about so many folks that slime and pb for hours on end...and it sounds like you had a whoozy one wheezy! (LOL)....I have had some wicked painful "stuck" feelings (golfball?) and some slimes wherein I don't know WHERE the hell that much liquid is coming from.....BUT my saving grace is that the longest one has lasted maybe 7 minutes......so how lucky am I?!!!!!

WHEW.

[loriely 0]

You are very lucky Yoda i have probably pb's about 8 times already. I still have a problem with with chewing my food.< /p>

[Yoda 0]

Loriely: how long do your pbs (the pain and slimes etc) last for each episode?

[CLOE 0]

Ya thanks Yoda!!! Actually my hubby says I'm not cheap at all, that I'm VERY, VERY, VERY expensive!!! lol

Wheezy, I'm sorry about your PB. I find that if I'm going to PB it will be because of my first bite, when I'm really hungry. Honestly, I was a VERY slow learner when it came to chewing. I know find myself chewing until there nothing left to chew, literally. I don't think I even swallow? I must, but I just chew and chew and chew.

I find that I don't eat much when I'm somewhere with someone. I usually just make a excuse like, I must have been not as hungry as I thought or my tummy feeling a bit sick, or I'm going to save some for later, something like that.

I'm also like Yoda, the most I PBed on something stuck was twice, about 2 minutes apart.

[Wheezy 0]

haha... that's funny. I haven't been! I guess I'd just take a little bit of whatever the meat is, hope and pray that its ok, maybe have some veggies or salad. Or just don't go! Claim to not be feeling too good... ?

I can't be doing that for the rest of my life. It will be a challenge though... how about anyone else. Have you been invited to someone's home and have not been able to eat what was served? If so, how did you handle it? I've eating at my sister's home, she knows, so I just tell her. But what about the in-laws, friends you haven't told, people you work with etc....

[neenagh 0]

I've just been telling pple that im on a diet. they get this sympathetic look on thier face and nod wisely, and you can just see that in thier heads their going ITS ABOUT TIME!!!