Just Checking In...10 Days To Go!

[letsdothis!!! 42]

I am verrrrry nervous, very very very very very very nervous! My two fears are being put to sleep and not waking up/feeling it and having a complication. I guess these fears are normal but I am just so ready to fast forward to about 2 months out lol. I am not as scared about waking up in surgery now, after I've talked to someone wonderful ppl;) and my doctor assured me he has never known that to happen-but now I keep imageing them telling my husband I didn't make it. Its like my brain just has to manifest some stupid fear>.< I'm young, and healthy besides being obese but I don't know why I'm tripping out:P I also am scared of having a leak and omgsh how awful would that be x10 because I am self pay, and of course I value my life!!! But in the back of my head there is something telling me everything is going to be ok, which I think is GOD (he always has my back<<<---i am so serious) so i need to just take a deep breath and relax! I told my husband I know he'll wanna talk to me and all but I am gonna want the "happy drugs" as soon I step in that hospital! My doc dosen't require a pre-op diet but i am going to give myself one for a week just to make myself feel better. I'm worried because lately i've been eating junk thinking I won't be able to enjoy it for a long time. I haven't gained any weight of course but I don't want to have a fatty liver or anything so the diet will help me feel better I hope and maybe i'll lose a pound or 2. I have been working out but nothing major just walking a mile or 2 every day or every other day, it just has been so hot out! Well this is all my little ramblings, just trying to get my thoughts out there. One more thing I can say is I bought some Protein, alot actually it should last me a long time. I bought 2 lean shakes from GNC, Cookies and cream and chocolate, natural choc muscle milk, syntha-6 mocchaino(yum) and cookies and cream(meh) nectar kiwi/strawberry it was kinda awkard I think, some cans of pure protein(BARF) than i bought some stuff from my doctors office proti 15 wildberry passion(YUMMMMM) and lemonade havent tried, some pudding they have its ok, and some amaretto cappucino havent tried. Anywho I also got some unflavored and OH some Unjury chicken and choco spledor, choc tastes like choc milk it is freaking good but the chicken everyone loves to me tastes a bit off, but it isnt bad so its ok i guess. I rather make my own, but anyways bought me a lil food processor and mini blender for about 15 bucks at wm and got some sf pudding, Jello, and popsiciles, I think im a set! I hope all this protein last a while btw because this stuff is expensive! >,< Well thanks for listening and hope you guys are doing well! Send me your well wishes and some prayers for surgery day:)

[cheryld 1]

Good luck and prayers are wtith you, you will be fine...I just started my journey...went to seminar and 1st doctors visit, next is the phych appt and nutritionist...which is in two wks; then cardiologist and pulomonologist. Whoo...lots of work to do...wishing you well!!