Today Was Rough!

[Felicity549 47]

I'm one month post-op, have lost 35 and have had a relatively uneventful/easy journey since surgery. I was 225 today, down from 260. My size 18's are getting baggy and it feels GOOD.

Today I babysatt for two toddlers, in addition to my own two-year-old. I decided we'd decorate Cookies. I made sugar Cookies and bought candy toppings, icing, etc... The kids had a blast.

I ate one cookie with frosting & sprinkles. I felt guilty afterward but just moved on. After everybody left and my baby was napping, I fell into the trap as I was cleaning up. The M&M'S beckoned me and I ate probably 1/4 cup of them. I suspected this would make me sick (and sabatoge my progress) yet could not restrain myself.

30 minutes later I was vomiting... and the chocolate coming back up was disgusting!! A few hours later I had diarrhea. I was miserable but knew I brought this on myself!

When will I learn? I've thrown out all the cookies and candy and never want to have another experience like this again. I just don't understand why I make bad decisions in the "heat of the moment" knowing full well that I'll badly regret them later.

Please tell me I'm not the only one who makes these bad choices. And those who have conquered them, how did you do it?

[Shilo30 16]

I'd love to know the answer to that question too!!! It sux to feel like you can't ignore that urge. :-(

[Lissa 2,631]

Sounds like you're not going to be eating sweets for quite some time, hmmm? I think you'll conquer that sweet addiction in a hurry now. You're doing it the same way many of us have beat our food addiction. Basically, that's one food at a time. You will learn what sleevie will tolerate and what sleevie won't tolerate.

I've gotten sick once and that was because I ate bread and Pasta at my meal, then took a drink much too quickly after eating. I don't eat bread or much Pasta anymore.

[healthiermeat40 25]

Hey don't beat up on yourself. I love sweets also, I had 1 cupcake & a scoop of ice cream last week. I dont have cravings like i use to. but i dont deprive myself. after the cookie just say ok, no more. i think the reason for the vomiting is because you ate too much or too fast (you were sneaking). last night i went to an event they had mini cupcakes, brownies & fruit. i chose fruit because i knew it was better for me and forwhat i am doing, if i would have deprived myself last week, trust me i would have grabbed a mini red velvet cupcake w/buttercreme icing. your mind has to catch up with your body. your mind has not gotten the memo that youre doing a new thing. i still fight with skinny girl/fat girl. i am also 1 mo post opand has lost 29 1/2 lbs. keep going, enjoy your journey its all trial and error, keep ur head up!