Four Days Away From Surgery And Feeling "blah" :/

[Delta_35 129]

Well I am scheduled to be sleeved on May 16th (Wednesday) and yet, I have not prepared myself. For some reason, it has not hit me that this surgery is about to happen! I had my last surgeon visit on yesterday and Dr. Halmi asked me again was I excited, and once again I said "I guess I will be on that day."

I really don't know what’s wrong with me. I thought at first it was because it was Mothers Day weekend (My Mom is deceased), but I really think thats only part of my nonchalant, don’t care attitude. I have been feeling like this for over a week and half. Don’t get me wrong, I want the surgery, but it just seems that I am not worried or even bothered with it. I am not even excited about having it. Maybe it’s because I think it will be like everything else, another failed weight loss adventure. I gave up getting excited about losing weight years ago, and at one point, just accepted that I would always be "the big girl". I guess i still feel that way deep down...

[dackn8tr 3]

You're not alone, i have mine done the the 16th also and am pretty calm at this point. I think i just have so many emotions about it all that they're all evening out to that blah feeling you described. Everyone who knows asks me if i'm excited and i am but i'm also considering how life altering this will be and that brings me back to that even keel. People ask me if i'm nervous but i'm really not at this point ... i suspect Tuesday night and most of Wednesday that will hit, last i heard my surgery isn't unitl 3 in the afternoon so i've got ALL DAY to stew about it! I had the same "big girl" realization a few years ago so my mind is still trying to wrap around the fact that if i do what i'm suppose to with this i'll never be that "big girl" again ... a little unsetteling but exciting at the same time! Keep in touch and good luck Wednesday i'm sure you'll do just fine!!!

Danielle

[Pennie 66]

What you are saying totally makes sense. Many of us, by the time we get to the point that we are having weight loss surgery, have tried and failed at just about every diet program under the sun. I remember in my psych eval, I was even telling the psychologist that my biggest fear was tha the sleeve wouldn't work. All other efforts had failed, so I had come to expect failure.

Your mixed emotions are understandable. You might even be feeling so many competing emotions that your a bit overwhelmed and it's coming out as being nonchalant.

You are going to do great. The sleeve WILL WORK. It isn't at all like any past diet or weight loss attempts you've had. Believe me. It will work! A year from now, you'll look back and be SO GLAD that you did it!

(((HUGS))) Your emotions are going to be what they are going to be. You can't force yourself to feel a certain way about the upcoming procedure, so don't worry about it. Pack you bags. Read lots of posts here. Plan for your recovery. I'm sure you've put a lot of thought and research into this decision, so trust your decision. You'll Celebrate later.

[Delta_35 129]

Thanks you guys, it feels good to know I am not going crazy! I feel a lot better

[KBT 35]

Hi Delta, my surgery is Monday with Dr. Halmi. I understand what you are saying and you are definitely not crazy. The office staff often asks me if I'm excited and I can't EVER say I'm excited about having surgery. I think the excitement will come when I see the weight coming off and it becomes more of a reality.