Mimz 38 Posted September 28, 2012 Kelli I'm getting mine done at st George private by assoc/prof peter Cosman. He has clinics in Liverpool and st George. Has had the sleeve done himself and a very impressive background! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
aussie kelloff 79 Posted September 28, 2012 Omg' date=' what an emotional day I'm having today. I'm so teary, crying at the drop of a hat! I've cried for Jill Meagher, I've cried because my children are away for the next 10 days and it's so quiet here. Ive cried because I have an infection in one of the inscisions and im still awaiting tests to see if its golden staph. I've cried because I just bought a new 55" TV and although I have begged, pleaded and even tried to pay people, I cannot get anyone to help me carry it so it's stuck in the back of my car. I've cried over songs on the radio...and it's not even 10am!! Oh I'm a mess today.[/quote'] Hey kayargh, Hope your day got better, take advantage of your children being away, rest and get your self better. Not good about your incision, when do you find out? Tonight, relax, get a good book, have a bath. Maybe a glass a wine too. 2 *Shell* and jules58 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
jules58 37 Posted September 28, 2012 Omg, what an emotional day I'm having today. I'm so teary, crying at the drop of a hat! I've cried for Jill Meagher, I've cried because my children are away for the next 10 days and it's so quiet here. Ive cried because I have an infection in one of the inscisions and im still awaiting tests to see if its golden staph. I've cried because I just bought a new 55" TV and although I have begged, pleaded and even tried to pay people, I cannot get anyone to help me carry it so it's stuck in the back of my car. I've cried over songs on the radio...and it's not even 10am!! Oh I'm a mess today. Hi we all have these days and i think all women have shed a tear for Jill r.i.p. Cannot believe no one wouls help u with the TV. Hope u feel better tomorrow jULIE Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cookeeeeez 269 Posted September 28, 2012 Very very bad emotional day for me today too Hope you feel better soon! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kayargh 112 Posted September 28, 2012 Thanks ladies, I finally scrapped the bottom of the barrel and had my ex brother in law install the TV. I feel like I have had a binge today, obviously not anywhere near pre sleeved binge, but have eaten all day an all the wrong foods. Today has just been a complete write off. I didn't hear anything today about the incision so I am taking it as no news is good news. I am now worried about the amount of food I have eaten today. I have felt very full but have not been physically sick. I don't want to cause a leak. Why oh why do I do this to myself? Here I was thinking how well I was doing, not craving, not regretting the surgery, not getting any depression.....think I was just counting my chickens before they hatch. Obviously still have some food issues to sort out :-( Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kayargh 112 Posted September 28, 2012 Cookeeeeez what has happened in your shitty day? Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cookeeeeez 269 Posted September 28, 2012 There are always going to be bumps in the road... It has been a long journey to this point but still only halfway to destination... All those sayings... Truth is, this is a hard hard thing. It's our cross to bear. I'm turning to my HP in these difficult times, it may help you to find a good source of support too Best of luck,, I know you can do this! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cookeeeeez 269 Posted September 28, 2012 Cookeeeeez what has happened in your shitty day? I had a violent outburst at a set of scales... Just ended up hurting myself and making exercise harder may have to go back into Sydney clinic to deal with this, but that would bite into my surgery funds... Going to the in-laws house for the weekend and hoping being around healthy stable people and loveable thriving nieces and nephews will be a great source of support. They are also very religious (think seminaries and nuns) so hoping to get some support there too... But hey, the trip to ER showed me a lot of people worse off- we are very lucky people! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kayargh 112 Posted September 28, 2012 I had a violent outburst at a set of scales... Just ended up hurting myself and making exercise harder may have to go back into Sydney clinic to deal with this' date=' but that would bite into my surgery funds... Going to the in-laws house for the weekend and hoping being around healthy stable people and loveable thriving nieces and nephews will be a great source of support. They are also very religious (think seminaries and nuns) so hoping to get some support there too... But hey, the trip to ER showed me a lot of people worse off- we are very lucky people![/quote'] Oh no! I hope you don't have to go back. Gosh, getting the sleeve isn't an immediate fix is it. We all knew this and the first week I could have never imagined eating the wrong foods after all the pain I was in- but here I am, no longer feeling the pain so the old me rears it's ugly head again. I had 3 months worth of psychology visits to deal with the events that lead me to turn to food and I thought I had it all under control, until today- when my emotions were high and I felt alone and depressed, I couldnt cope without the food. I hope u r feeling better very soon my love, take solice in a loving supportive family and just think, the sun has gone down on today as you should let the sun go down on your troubles. Tomorrow is a new day and a chance to start all over again. xx Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
ozeedonkee 145 Posted September 28, 2012 Oh no! I hope you don't have to go back. Gosh' date=' getting the sleeve isn't an immediate fix is it. We all knew this and the first week I could have never imagined eating the wrong foods after all the pain I was in- but here I am, no longer feeling the pain so the old me rears it's ugly head again. I had 3 months worth of psychology visits to deal with the events that lead me to turn to food and I thought I had it all under control, until today- when my emotions were high and I felt alone and depressed, I couldnt cope without the food.< /p> [/quote'] Yep - we've all got that **** going on (at least I do). I don't think 3 months is going to resolve issues which have been plaguing us for so long. Don't be so hard on yourself. You want to know what I think? (you can't answer that, so I'm gonna tell you anyway ) we need to learn to forgive and love ourselves. I'm working on it for myself. 1 Kayargh reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
kelliv 659 Posted September 28, 2012 Thanks ladies' date=' I finally scrapped the bottom of the barrel and had my ex brother in law install the TV. I feel like I have had a binge today, obviously not anywhere near pre sleeved binge, but have eaten all day an all the wrong foods. Today has just been a complete write off. I didn't hear anything today about the incision so I am taking it as no news is good news. I am now worried about the amount of food I have eaten today. I have felt very full but have not been physically sick. I don't want to cause a leak. Why oh why do I do this to myself? Here I was thinking how well I was doing, not craving, not regretting the surgery, not getting any depression.....think I was just counting my chickens before they hatch. Obviously still have some food issues to sort out :-([/quote'] Hi Kayargh, sorry to hear you are still struggling. Are you still seeing a psychologist ongoing? I had to see one as compulsory before surgery, but not sure if that is the case with everyone. They may be able to help you work through some issues and lay some of your fears to rest. This forum can offer a level of support, but only to a certain point. Keep smiling and try and say positive. 1 Kayargh reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cookeeeeez 269 Posted September 29, 2012 Oh no! I hope you don't have to go back. Gosh, getting the sleeve isn't an immediate fix is it. We all knew this and the first week I could have never imagined eating the wrong foods after all the pain I was in- but here I am, no longer feeling the pain so the old me rears it's ugly head again. I had 3 months worth of psychology visits to deal with the events that lead me to turn to food and I thought I had it all under control, until today- when my emotions were high and I felt alone and depressed, I couldnt cope without the food. I hope u r feeling better very soon my love, take solice in a loving supportive family and just think, the sun has gone down on today as you should let the sun go down on your troubles. Tomorrow is a new day and a chance to start all over again. xx Thank you, that's a wonderful sentiment! I'm all dressed up and ready to go Hope the other girls had a good Breakfast this morning! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Cookeeeeez 269 Posted September 29, 2012 Oh, And it's the hard times that test us, not the easy ones! Go back to the psych for a fine tuning of your tools! I've been at it for almost ten years now! Mine always asks "so what did you learn?", if you can learn something from every experience then it will get easier not fixed, never fixed, but easier 1 Kayargh reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Scotty75 68 Posted September 29, 2012 I have a lil no sleeve drama..........Had a lease car through work didnt know much about it and lets just say i got burnt. Couldnt sell my car b4 the lease ran out and auction house were going to put me further in the red.......so I had to use the money from my super to buy out the car............Now desperately trying to sell the car b4 my surgery date. Now thats enuf to send a guy to the drink ( not that I needed any help with that ) Stressing any1 wants to buy a Dualis really cheap let me know...lol. I believe in Karma and good WILL come my way. Not stressing yet......stay tuned as the time counts down....lol. Couldnt just have a smooth run into surgery could I.....lol Scotty Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kayargh 112 Posted September 29, 2012 Hi everyone, thank u for your support the last couple of days. Today was a much better day, despite my beloved Hawks going down to the Swans. I guess it was only a matter of time before I felt the slight depression that others had experienced. I am a very independent person and do everything myself, so I guess I have struggled with not being able to do stuff that needs to be done. The 3 months wasnt compulsory, my doc and I agreed it would be best to deal with some issues before getting sleeved as they are directly related to my weight gain. I would try again but not with the same psychologist. That's no good Scotty, hope u sell the car quickly. sleep well everyone, we finally have some rain here on the coast tonight- lovely sound to fall asleep too :-) Share this post Link to post Share on other sites