Depression

[suchaprettyface 11]

Was sleeved on 4/23. Surgery went great. Only problems were being in recovery for quite a while because my blood pressure was up very high which increased my pain a greas deal. When that stabilized I felt good. Was in the hospital Monday thru Thursday afternoon because my O2 levels were so low. They ended up sending me home with 24 hour oxegyn. Friday I had a sensation fit what I could find no reason for that something was stuck in my throat. I tried to cough it up and vomited a little. I called the surgeon and he (through his reception said I must have overeaten if I committed). Which I did not. I asked about the sensation and really didn't get an answer. Fortunately I went away in a few hours but I am scared it will come back. I'm feeling mostly physically okay. But suffering a lot with tiredness and depression. I'm going through a divorce and my soon to be ex husband is living in our house while I recoup at my moms (whose taking amazing care of me). He graduated with his MBA this weekend and we had so many hopes and dreams together and now he is off sharing that all with someone else. He's also mad I did the surgery behind his back. For years he didn't want me to have it because he said I should do it on my own. And because he had an anxiety disorder and spent so much time taking care of him he said he wouldn't know what to do without me. Now he said hes mad because its an unnecessary expense (of which insurance is mostly coveribg). Now he's out living his life with someone and I am sleeping so much and drinking mush Soup. I feel like before the surgery while I was getting ready to do it I was so happy. Now I'm so depressed and wondering if I'd just had more self control could I have just lost the weight on my own? Would I still be able to enjoy a big portion of food sometimes. Why was I happier planning to have the surgery than after? It's also so hard watching my family eat even though they are careful to try not to do it in front of me. They were surprised how much I slept at the hospital. I had to explain about my depression and the divorce.

[warrior 9]

Give yourself some credit. You've made a monumental decision to improve your life and you took action and made it happen. Of course you're going to grieve the changes in your relationship - you would even without the surgery.

As with all things, time heals. Look for those who support you, stay on this website, work with a counselor and focus on improving yourself and your new life. The year ahead holds many marvelous changes for you. It's an exciting time - embrace it the best you can along the way.

Save this post and all the replies. I bet you'll see things differently fairly soon. Treat yourself with tenderness and compassion while you do all the hard work ahead. You can and will thrive!

Remember, you can't meet the man of your dreams while you're tethered to Captain Insensitive.

Wishing health and happiness!