Confession Time

[Paola 62]

After months of model behavior I fell off the wagon for a few weeks. I ate too many carbs, I stopped tracking my food, I even stopped coming by the forum. This has happened before, for some reason there is a point were I grow tired of the same foods, or I don't think I am losing weight fast enough, and I end up self sabotaging myself. I have continued to lose weight, but much slower than before, I think that is because no matter what I ate I never stopped doing 1 hr exercise almost everyday. My eating carbs reduced the amount of Protein I ate and that in turn means that every time I run my fingers through my hair some always comes out. So now I know that my actions have consequences, I have to take better care of myself, and I will.

The good news is that I have recognized my self sabotage and I refuse to throw in the towel. I am very close to the smallest I have ever been as an adult (245), and I am going to get to my goal weight (150)!

Now that that is off my chest I feel much better

[Spatters3 315]

*Big HUG* We have met the enemy and it is us! I have found that even only 2 months post-op I can manage to eat a LOT of calories. So, as I already knew, feeling hunger really has nothing to do with why I eat. I love food! I love the taste first of all, and then I love the texture and temperature. Eating is a very pleasurable past time. The VSG has made me very aware of my relationship with food. Awareness of a problem is always the first step to finding a solution. We are aware!

[NancyJerry 139]

The good news is that I have recognized my self sabotage and I refuse to throw in the towel. I am very close to the smallest I have ever been as an adult (245), and I am going to get to my goal weight (150)!

Now that that is off my chest I feel much better

Welcome back! Newbies like me need seasoned losers like you to keep us inspired. Your pictures are amazing. Keep up the awesome work - You're beautiful!

[Paola 62]

*Big HUG* We have met the enemy and it is us! I have found that even only 2 months post-op I can manage to eat a LOT of calories. So, as I already knew, feeling hunger really has nothing to do with why I eat. I love food! I love the taste first of all, and then I love the texture and temperature. Eating is a very pleasurable past time. The VSG has made me very aware of my relationship with food. Awareness of a problem is always the first step to finding a solution. We are aware!

Being hungry isn't my problem either, truthfully there are very few times when I ever feel hungry. I just like food, and I like eating, I thought I was over food but I still need to work on that. Because my hair is falling at an alarming rate, and my hair is my one true vanity, nothing but Protein is passing through these lips. I love this sleeve, because it has stopped me from gaining weight during my weeks of madness, I have never been so happy about getting full so quickly. Thanks to the sleeve the damage to my weight loss was minimal.

Now I just keep repeating to myself that food is not the boss of me. I remember telling my mom once that food is an addiction, and it is. In my opinion it is the hardest addiction, because you can't quit food. You can quit smoking, drugs, alcohol, but you can't quit food. But like you said, I am aware, and I know that with my faith and my will, I will succeed.

[Paola 62]

Welcome back! Newbies like me need seasoned losers like you to keep us inspired. Your pictures are amazing. Keep up the awesome work - You're beautiful!

Thank you, but I must tell you I still consider myself a newbie

[Spatters3 315]

I just noticed Paola, that you lost 80 lbs pre-op, which means you have lost over 120 lbs so far on this journey! Yowza! I think your weight ticker should start at your highest weight. What a great accomplishment! Hooray for the sleeve!

[Lissa 2,631]

Paola, Half of fixing a problem is recognizing it and admitting it. food is a horrible addiction and we all have at least some form of it, IMO. You did an amazing job on your pre-op and you're going to do an amazing job now! I have faith in you!

You need to keep coming where you get support and help from people who have been on the same journey you're on, and that means you need to check in here more often. Don't leave yourself out there with no support. I notice that I stay more motivated and on schedule when I check in here daily.

Good luck! I can't wait to see your newest before/after pics!

[Miriam 50]

After months of model behavior I fell off the wagon for a few weeks. I ate too many carbs, I stopped tracking my food, I even stopped coming by the forum. This has happened before, for some reason there is a point were I grow tired of the same foods, or I don't think I am losing weight fast enough, and I end up self sabotaging myself. I have continued to lose weight, but much slower than before, I think that is because no matter what I ate I never stopped doing 1 hr exercise almost everyday. My eating carbs reduced the amount of Protein I ate and that in turn means that every time I run my fingers through my hair some always comes out. So now I know that my actions have consequences, I have to take better care of myself, and I will.

The good news is that I have recognized my self sabotage and I refuse to throw in the towel. I am very close to the smallest I have ever been as an adult (245), and I am going to get to my goal weight (150)!

Now that that is off my chest I feel much better

Thanks for posting this. Although overall I'm doing well (8th week post-op), I have had some slip-ups, relatively small 'cause how much can I eat already, but they do worry me because I see them as a regression to my old behavior. So I can definitely identify with what you're going through.

As another poster wrote, recognizing the problem is the first step toward fixing it. So good luck and please continue to post any enlightenment you have along your weight loss journey!

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

I am so tortured by Fluid intake. It is so hard to consume alot. Ughggggg!

[Brandi Lewis 6]

We have a great tool but it's not A mericle worker. We still are human and make mistakes. The best thing is realizing when we are making mistakes and correcting those mistakes. My loss has slowed way down I'm about 17 months out. I know I need to kick up the exercise and Fluid intake and Protein. I do need to kick those carbs. I'm thankful for this group.