Freaking Out

[aviiva 140]

ok I had surgery yesterday and I really can't complain about the pain I am just second guessing myself that I did something so permanent. is this a normal feeling. I now know what everyone means about not getting fluids down. I am going home tom so hopefully I will feel calmer. I need some positive reinforcement. thanks everyone

[JG407 4]

Hey avi, this is COMPLETELY normal. I don't know of its separation anxiety, hormones or what, but I definitely had the same feeling right after. Why did I do this, was it the right choice, what if it doesn't work etc. letting go of these false assumptions and perceptions is hard but I will tell you from experience (I'm 10 months out) that it all gets better and the only regret you will have is that you didn't do it sooner. I know you don't know me, but I ask you to trust me. You've just been through a major surgery and you will not start to heal physically and then mentally. Keep your eye on the "why" you did this to begin with (I'm assuming to be healthy, happy and have a new lease on life) and that intense focus will allow you to get through the "how" (the possible pain, difficulties and new ways of doing things that to will learn over the next couple of months). I'm proud of you, you can do it, and I can't wait to hear about your progress and how amazing you feel when this first speed bump is behind you. Happy birthday, a new life is coming your way!

[aviiva 140]

thank you

[pussnboots 5]

Good Luck, and keep us posted.

[ChristineS NY 44]

Hi Aviiva,

I haven't had my surgery yet but I have wondered if I will feel that same way. I went to my first support meeting and a woman there who is 6 months out said that a few days after she had her surgery, woke up in the middle of the night in a panic wondering what the heck she just did. That was the only time she paniced after the surgery and she said she looks back and kind of laughs at that because she doesn't regret her surgery at all and given the oppourtunity to do it again, she would. I think the feelings are totally normal. Take one day, moment at a time and focus on the wonderful things that are to come for you!

Christine

[aviiva 140]

thank that is the stuff I need to hear. I am sure once I see a weight loss I will feel better. it has not helped that everyone at the hospital is saying I am not tha big I have to lose 60 to 70 pounds per my dr. if I was able to do it myself I would have. thanks again

[favoredone 590]

Yep!! Happened to me when I was being wheeled to my room out of recovery... I thought I was having a nightmare... It felt like I was in the twilight zone or something...3 and a half months later... I'm so glad I went through w/ it.. I love my Sleevina!!!

[Valleygirl78574 5]

You sound like me... I am 5'5 and was 191 a lot of people would look at me like I was nuts having the sleeve done, but no one knew I was borderline diabetic, seizures because of sugars, as well as a very low opinion of myself...I am 21 days out and I have lost 27lbs...I am fitting into clothes I haven't worn in years...the first few days were extremely hard, I haven't told many people so they think I am sick losing so much weight...stick in there you made the right choice and you will be much happier thinner, as well as healthier..I would of never been able to lose weight on my own, the sleeve has changed my relationship with food, I am an addict!!!

[amarieh 3]

I just had the sleeve done on tuesday april 3 and I have had some of the same feelings. I have asked myself, what have i done, this is so permanent, I let them take out my stomach! So, I have had some of the same thoughts. from reading the forum, it seemss that these are normal feelings. As i heal and feel better and see the pounds melt, I am confident that these feelings will go away.

[ashleystanley 2]

Ok guys!!! I had all of those feelings!!! I felt guilty for doing it and kind of vain. No one understands how we feel unless they have been there. I had my surgery March 22 and left the hospital weighing 295. My highest weight was 305. I am two weeks and one day out and am down to 271!!! It is amazing. I had lots of pain after surgery and thought it was the biggest mistake I've ever made. Lol I cried and yelled at my husband for eating my favorite foods in front of me. I had to stay in the hospital an extra day because I was sickly tired and in major pain. I've had two c sections and this was much worse for me. The doctor told me it was because I am younger and the muscles in my stomach are having a harder time recovering because they are tighter than someone older. I am slowly betting my energy back and my sadness about food has eased tremendously. I am very satisfied with my sleeve! I could have never dieted and got down to 160 on my own. Got a way to go, but it will be here before I know it!!!

[PonyUp 24]

You sound like me... I am 5'5 and was 191 a lot of people would look at me like I was nuts having the sleeve done, but no one knew I was borderline diabetic, seizures because of sugars, as well as a very low opinion of myself...I am 21 days out and I have lost 27lbs...I am fitting into clothes I haven't worn in years...the first few days were extremely hard, I haven't told many people so they think I am sick losing so much weight...stick in there you made the right choice and you will be much happier thinner, as well as healthier..I would of never been able to lose weight on my own, the sleeve has changed my relationship with food, I am an addict!!!

I have my surgery on April 10th, and I went into GNC to buy all my Vitamins, etc and the girl could not believe I was having WLS...no doubt I am overweight at 220, 5'7", but it use to be only the severely obese could have WLS and I am glad a lot of us now have the opportunity to have the surgery before all the co-morbities associated often with severely obese set in.

[Artsy 48]

Aviiva , I'm like you--short. But I'm 5 ft tall & weigh 191 lbs. My BMI is 38. I need to lose 65-70lbs---have gained and lost that much & more several times. I've heard of sleevers feeling a loss, like a funeral for food. we definitely can't eat the way we once did. Also I hear foods that were once favorites are no longer tempting. Wishing you continued success. Congrats on your weight loss so far.

[rodswife 155]

I'm 4'9 and was sleeved this past Monday, April 2nd. I had some major regrets the first day and a half because I was so dang sick and hurt so bad. But 4 days out and I feel great. I started out at 250lbs and I am down to 238lbs and I am eager to see much more weight loss. I am, however, feeling guilty because I see how all these people are working out for hours and day and I just cant dedicate that much time to a workout with 6 children. Hang in there. I think it will get easier once we start really seeing results. Congrats on your new life.

[betterthanbefore 19]

I am the exact same way. I am only 60 to 70 pounds over weight and ii am alreay starting to feel guilty about this whole thing befor having surgery..i am starting to second guess because it is so permanent but the thought of just getting bigger and bigger makes me very sad. I have one son that is very over weight and i think in my mind i want to go thru this to see hoe it feels so that maybe i can help him also. He is only 14 and it breaks myy heart to see him like that. All my other kids have a good weight..so we will see. I cantt chicken out now. My surgery is scheduled for april 16.

[betterthanbefore 19]

I am the exact same way. I am only 60 to 70 pounds over weight and ii am alreay starting to feel guilty about this whole thing befor having surgery..i am starting to second guess because it is so permanent but the thought of just getting bigger and bigger makes me very sad. I have one son that is very over weight and i think in my mind i want to go thru this to see hoe it feels so that maybe i can help him also. He is only 14 and it breaks myy heart to see him like that. All my other kids have a good weight..so we will see. I cantt chicken out now. My surgery is scheduled for april 16.