Just A Little Frustrated!

[Shanny 70]

I try not to stress about my weight. I know what I'm supposed to do and I have it down to a science. However, over the last few weeks, I've realized that i am addicted to chocolate. It's the one thing that I can eat all day long. Reese's Peanut Butter Cups and York Peppermint Patties are my drug of choice. Actually, there were a few bad days where that's all I ate.Granted we were waiting for high school acceptance letters, and then financial aid/scholarship awards. I know that doesn't sound like a good reason to go on a chocolate binge, but if my son didn't get into high school, he would have to go to public school and I swear I will put on clear heels and glitter, change my name to Bubbles, and work a pole before that happens - I was stressed out!

Needless to say, in the last 6 weeks, I've gained 3 pounds. Even though I had my chocolate thing, I still exercised regularly. In fact, I've stepped it up! I walked 14.5 miles yesterday! Go me!!! I belly dancing, Bollywood Dancing, do Crunch Ass & Abs everday, aerobics 2 times a week, and walk at least 20 miles a week! I'm in great shape. I can't get these damn 3 pounds off though!

It's not all bad. My body shape has shifted again, and I have a butt and hips again! Thank God. The remaining fat shifted and I'm curvy again(I hated the way I was shaped once I started losing weight - I'm not used to not having a butt!) My measurements are smaller than they were before my chocolate indisgression, yet my weight is up. I'm even in a smaller pants size now. I'm down from an 8 and firmly into a 6. But, I weigh more. I don't understand it.

I try not to live my life by the scale, but I can't help but to weigh myself everyday. I love the way I look, I love the way my clothes fit. I'm in the best shape of my life, so why are those damn numbers so important to me? I know I have to maintain my weight for 6 months before I can have plastic surgery. Maybe that's why. I want a Tummy Tuck and my thighs and arms done. But at this rate it's not going to happen as long as I'm gaining weight.

I haven't been through one of these upward swings in a hot minute, so I'm slightly freaking out about it. I know that I have just wait and one day I'll wake up and have lost 5 pounds. But, until then I remain slightly frustrated!

[Lissa 2,631]

Muscle weighs more than fat and I'm assuming that you are definitely gaining muscle. With your exercise routine, there is no way you aren't gaining muscle. This is one of those cases where the scale is a liar. You look better, feel better, and are wearing smaller clothes. IMO, that 3 pounds is NOTHING. Don't stress that at all, because you are a success!! Congrats on your weight loss and you look MARVELOUS!!

[Shanny 70]

@ Lissa, I know 3 pounds isn't a lot. I'm just afraid that 3 pounds will turn into 10, which will turn into 20 and then me gaining all of my weight back! It's irrational, but I'm so afraid to go back to feeling how I did when I was bigger. I can't let that happen. I want to nip it now before it gets out of hand.

Thanks for the kind words. I feel great and I'm healthy. That's all that really matters.

[Ms skinniness 3,003]

The only way you will go back up to where you were before you started is if you went back to eating unhealthy foods again. You have diffinately gained muscle weight which will increase your body's ability to burn fat. It's even better than before. Enjoy your body and eat healthy and you will be fine.