Surgery Next Week!

[Joiebean 53]

My surgery is a week from Tuesday (January 17th). I'm really excited and nervous all at the same time. It feels so surreal still. I suppose it won't feel real until I'm actually in the hospital gown, in the bed. I'm really NOT looking forward to waking up in pain though. I'm sensitive to anesthesia and tend to throw up after general. Really nervous about that, and the pain that will go with it, cause it definitely engages your core. I'm hoping that the nurses and doctors can manage all that and I don't feel like absolute death after. But I have to keep my eye on the prize and know that will pass.

Today I am planning on organizing all of my clothes and getting my 'last week of fat clothes" all lined up, so that I don't have to fight with my wardrobe this week and then will be rid of it forever!! Woohoo. I have this favorite pair of jeans from college (well before low rise was the big thing...they are appropriate for a 30-something to wear) but I absolutely CAN NOT WAIT to fit back into them. They are a size 10 I think. It will be a 'glorious day in the neighborhood' the day I put those on and they fit. I will definitely be rocking them to work, even though they 'frown' upon jeans on anyday except Friday. God I am so happy that the last time I will have to wear my fat jeans to work on Friday will be this Friday.

I know I'm rambling, but this is the constant circle of thoughts that is going through my mind in anticipation of next week. whew.......

Fortunately most everyone is supportive. My brother is in the midst of cancer treatment (stage 3 melanoma) and so my family is really focused on that. My husband is being fantastic, even though he has never been overweight (he is 6'3 and had trouble GAINING weight...damn guy but I am fighting the feeling that I am stealing my brother's thunder. Every time I mention it to him I feel like he is thinking "why are we talking about you, when I have CANCER" and I'm definitely scared for him, but he still has really good treatment options and all of the surgery has taken the majority of it away. I'm actually so tired of worrying about everyone else (and we don't even have kids!) that I asked that no one visit me in the hospital. My mother was ex-communicated from the family when I was 17, so as the youngest and only female, I ended up playing the matriarch. Its a lot of responsibility and really exhausting, especially when they all expect you to care but then act like you are unbelievably bothersome. Especially when they never ask about me or my life and when I bring it up, they act like I'm self-centered. But then you can't choose your family right? My friends are all really supportive and there is a definite give and take with them (hence why they are my friends.) And since I am doing this surgery for me (and my husband sees how my role in my family is exhausting and totally understands) he supports my decision in asking everyone to NOT come to the hospital. I just want to be able to feel like crap and not have to worry about the others in the room. Fortunately they are all fine with it.

I'm just rambling, but it helps to get this stuff out beforehand. I'm sure a lot of you understand my spiraling thoughts

[LacieMC 136]

Congrats! We are getting sleeved the same day. Here's to a speedy recovery!

[Liliana Arleen 173]

Good luck on your new journey

[Happylife 6]

You are creating a new chapter in your life! I think you are going to have really happy days ahead! Congrats

[fcrespo 3]

Greetings, I am getting my sleeve on the 18th and I am nervous as well. I never been under anesthesia. My older sister just had her sleeve 3 weeks ago and she was in pain but didn't regret it at all. She has lost so far 40 pounds and you could really tell. Now she is my support group. Even though she tells me that I should get over the nervousness because I could drop dead right now with the high blood pressure and cholestrol. But, that encourages me to stay focus for this week.

I am still nervous but, I guess I didn;t go through the journey on getting this procedure approve for nothing. I just have to stick to it and take a picture of the rock with me so that I could tell myself " This is how I am going to look this summer". I guess.

Any feed back on the nervousness and bad thoughts on the pain IF i get any??

By the way congrats Joiebean and LacieMc!!

He we come the 18th!!! I'm excited and at times I say to myself why in the hell I allowed my sister talk me into to this. But, I already tried the working out, shakes, pills, body for life challenges, weight lose programs, foods etc... and it was always the roller coster ride. I lose weight then gain. Now, I'm serious but nervous.

[Mel34 11]

Joibean,

I'm so sorry about your brother and what he is going through but you're right! you have to look out for yourself too! And yes, you might think that you are stealing your brother's thunder/spot light or whatever you want to call it, but your surgery only lasts 2 days and you are doing for your health as well. Both of you are in for a long journey ahead and everyone has to understand that.

Keep your head up, girl and don't worry about anything right now. And you're not self-centered or selfish!!

I'm getting sleeved on the 18th as well and I can't wait!!! i've never gone under so that's about all i'm freaking out about right now.

i have some pair of slacks that haven't fit me for years and that's my goal for now... getting into those! lol

I already cleaned out my closet last month and all my skinny clothes is up front. I can't believe this is the last week i'm going to be using all my "fat clothes" and it's great!!!!!!

We are all going to do great!!!

[BigLittleSister 0]

Joibean,

Congrats and good luck on your surgery. Mine is not yet scheduled as I am still working my way through insurance preauth and such. I wish you the best of luck and a speedy recovery! Here's to all of the new possibilities of life!

BigLittleSister

[juli916 6]

Good luck to all of you! I was sleeved 11/28/11. I have to admit, the recovery room was hell for me and I think I have a pretty high tolerance for pain. Of course, everyone's experience is different. I remember coming to and having a piercing awful pain in my chest. When they asked how I felt, the only words I could put together were "like a shish kabob" They probably thought I was crazy, but if they had said I had a spear through my chest, I would have believed them. Then I started throwing up and there was blood in it. Not very comforting. I am very sensitive to catheters and I felt like my bladder was bursting full for 3 hours. When I was finally getting wheeled to my room, I asked to please get the catheter out. They said after I walked. I said then I am walking right now! I did 2 laps around the ward and the pain in my chest lessened. Then once the catheter was out, I could relax and sleep. Once I was home, I didn't need the pain meds. I was achy and tired, but fine within a week.

Not trying to scare you, and I'm sure your experience will be much easier, but for me, I would rather be prepared for the worst.

[andkel30 57]

Good luck Joibean and lacie.....Happy healing!!!!!! Lacie let me know how it goes Im going to Dr. Garcia on Feb 22....