I Am So Scared That I Waffle Back And Forth

[jillbeme 0]

I have my surgery approval but the fear is causing me to change my mind. I had the Lapband and lost 25lb and more issues than I care to discuss. Now I have this opportunity yet my fears cause me to doubt. What if I can't do this. I love good food...especially a good steak and salad, will I ever have this again. One of my friends who is also heavy stated just except that your fat. But my self esteem is so low that I can't even stand to look at myself. I have been so stressed over this I just don't know what to do.

Jill

[ILKrista 36]

Jill,

No one can tell you what to do... not me & not your friend. I can tell you that I was certain that this would work for everyone but me... in fact, I felt sure that I would probably die during surgery. In the end, I decided that I would rather take the risk of death or yet another failure than to keep my life in the miserable state that it was. I have been amazed at how well this surgery has worked for me. In the beginning, you will be pretty restricted as to what you can eat... but after about 4-6 months out, there is nothing that I can eat... in small portions. I feel better now than I ever have in my adult life. I can't tell you what to do & maybe you should talk to some people who have revised from lapband (Miss Diva comes to mind). But if you are genuinely that unhappy with yourself, what are you really risking? If the surgery doesn't work for you, then you are no worse off than you were before. Just my 2 cents. Best of luck with your decision!