19 mos out and love my sleeve today

[pumpkin07 32]

I have had the munchies. Really wanting to eat a lot of food. Bought a big box of Cookies from costco, these danish sugar cookies, bc it seemed like a great deal for $12 bucks. OMG that was such a bad idea. Therea re 25 dozen cookies in the tin. We have had company this weekend and between all of us, mostly me I think, the box is now half empty and I definitely probably ate more than anyone else because I was cooking and they were there. Not to mention that I just ate from sun up to sun down on Saturday. Grazing all my sleeve would allow. How I wanted to eat a lot. I just wanted to eat a ton of roast beef, carrots and potatoes, etc. I wanted VOLUME this weekend for some reason. I didn't lose all my weight after the sleeve. Mostly I'm around 148 now. And tonight I'm at 149 and so thankful. Was scared I'd weigh 155.

Not trying purposely to test my sleeve, but just thankful it works. Somehow I do good and I do bad, I am active and inactive, Vitamins and forgetting vitamins. But through it all I'm like 145-150 up and down within my range. I know as long as I'm in my range, I'm good.

Would love to weight 128, my doctor's goal for me. Longing to be smaller in the waist but feeling way to lazy about getting there at this point. Not really wanting plastic surgery. I still look fat naked, same shape as before, just smaller. I wear a 10, sometimes an 8. I have worn, S M and L in shirts. One day at Michael Kor I bought 3 shirts, one in each size. Just depends. There are things about me that are just still fat, mostly my muffin top. But when I'm ready to hit it hard, I know my sleeve will be there to help me. And right now, when I'm just seemingly trying to be bad, my sleeve is there for me.

It is a win win.

I do suffer with a bit of reflux and have to take Prilosec every other day or so. But other than acids trying to shoot into my esophogus, I'm good. I think I have a problem with reflux because my sleeve is small and I am a short person, so small and short I guess (a 34 boughie) My surgeon refused to do a bigger sleeve on me, said I wouldn't lose the weight I wanted. I think he is right, but the reflux sucks. Sometimes I wish I could eat a full meal though,

I know someone with a bigger sleeve, and he feels he has to have more will power than me to lose weight. Not sure what the magical answer is, but I'm just thankful for 149 today. Because I deserve to be gaining and I'm not.

I'm sort of on hold until I make that decision to start moving for life. I want to do Pilates, walking, weights...but I just never get started.

[Nichelle 21]

Congratulations on all your hard work!! 149lbs is fantastic. As long as your comfortable that is what matters.

[longer-life 139]

Welcome!