At the top of a rollar coaster ride

[PhatGurl80 26]

Hey Everyone!

Well, the time is near. In two days, I will finally be sleeved. This journey so far has been full of emotional ups and downs for me. My original surgery date was a month ago on Aug. 11th. But, then my grandmother passed away the week I was s upposed to have surgery. Not even 10 days later a very close uncle of mine passed away. I've been snapping at the fiance over trival things because this pre-op diet (extended) has gotten me so irritable. Yesterday he finally just hugged me asn finally asked if I was OK. I"ll be flying out for my rescheduled surgery tomorrow morning and being sleved on the 14th. Wow. It's here. The feeling I have now is the one you get when you're climbing the first hill of a rollar coaster. click click click click... you hear the noise as you inch further and further towards the sky and the only thing you feel is that knot in the pit of your stomach. And you say to yourself (or maybe even out loud) "why am i doing this!! I want to get off this ride!" So, on the inside i''m screaming lol. And unlike being strapped into a rollar coaster, there is still a way out for me. I sometimes feel that I might jump ship, but I try to repress that feeling as much as Possible. I know this is the right choice. So maybe once I reach the top of the rollar coaster, and edge over that hill and look down i'll be able to see my whole life that is waiing ahead. And then they'll be screams of joy.

[Rootman 1,101]

Pgulr, we all wish you the bast and you have are deepest condolences on your loss. I have to forewarn you; for most the roller coaster doesn't stop after surgery, there will be plenty of dips and hills to come - just be prepared.

Good luck in the surgery, keep us informed of the outcome. Look forward to hearing you tell us that PHAT means Pretty Hot And Tempting