feeling the blues

[peacequeen 434]

I'm trying so hard not to be anxious. I feel miserable in my big body these days. I have several events coming up and I just wish I had already had my procedure and got some of this weight off. Not only so I would look better but just to feel better. The process is so slow, approaching 10 months now..and close to a year of reading and trying to educate myself before that. Funny how so many of us are so anxious to have a surgery. I know yall can hear the desperation from me but I do feel down and wish I could get motivated more. I suffer from depression and I really am trying to keep my spirits up so I don't get stuck in a rut. I can't believe I've resorted to surgery, I feel really disappointed in myself but still want the procedure so bad.

[ab76307 22]

I know how you feel. I started the process in Dec. of 2009, and decided oh I don't know if I want to go that far. Then a friend at work had the bypass and I got to watch as she lost weight and began to feel better. Then I began to have second thoughts just then another friend at work also had the bypass and she also did well by then I was sold, but the idea of Vitamins for the rest of my life and no aleve (Lots of Headaches) didn't appeal to me, and then I found the sleeve. I started the whole process again in Jan. 2011 and I have been approved by my insurance and now I am just waiting the surgery scheduler to call and I find myself becoming really impatient. Of course I've known for a long time that this is what I want but now I also find myself having doubts..will it work?, will I loose weight?... So I know how you feel about being blue but both of the friends says they would do it again no questions asked... I noticed you went to georgetown for your consult is that in Ky?

[peacequeen 434]

Thanks ab76307. Yes, it's in Ky.

After living my life of struggling with my weight, I know this is the right decision for me. I'm 46 now, wish I had the surgery a long time ago. I'm a faithful person and have been letting scriptures guide me through this process,,guess I'm having moments of weakness with all the anxiousness. Thanks for listening.

[christin 54]

I'm trying so hard not to be anxious. I feel miserable in my big body these days. I have several events coming up and I just wish I had already had my procedure and got some of this weight off. Not only so I would look better but just to feel better. The process is so slow, approaching 10 months now..and close to a year of reading and trying to educate myself before that. Funny how so many of us are so anxious to have a surgery. I know yall can hear the desperation from me but I do feel down and wish I could get motivated more. I suffer from depression and I really am trying to keep my spirits up so I don't get stuck in a rut. I can't believe I've resorted to surgery, I feel really disappointed in myself but still want the procedure so bad.

I was just thinking this same thing driving home from the mall. I telecommute so I don't usually have to worry about work clothes, but I have a conference coming up in a week. I had to go shopping and I just wanted to cry. So tired of buying fat clothes. I wish this surgery was over yesterday. I have my consultation at the end of the month, but will have to wait until January for various reasons. I am just ready to start my new life. I have been researching and thinking for almost a year too, so I hear ya!