LOSING HOPE

[Lilu 65]

I have been over weight all my life and lived with the fact that this is my body. I raised my self esteem and became proud of being a big woman. But I started to get illness related to being fat and that start to worry me so I started dieting and was going no where. I have diabetes and found the older I got the worse it became. The diabetes is slowly taking away my life. So last Oct I started my Journey on the WLS road after I read that the surgery can help take away Diabetes from my life. I went thru all the hoops the doctors asked me to go thru. But now we are in August and I still can not get cleared. While I try to keep my hopes up I find myself slipping. Everytime I think I find that silver lining in the cloud, something else pops up. I have diabetes, Hypothyriodism, Neruopthy in my feet, Diabete damaged in my eyes, sleep apna, Blockage in my heart, Blocked artery in the brian and had a stroke with no effect to me.

When I start all I had diabetes and high blood pressure since Jan. 2011 I started to get everything else.

What little hope I have goes away day by day. Honestly I am doing everything the doctors tell me to do.

1. Eat right: I fasted for a couple of days and began the last week of the WLS diet. I measure all my food count carbs, Protein, and calories. Cooking style has change.

2. Exercise three times a week.

3. Take my meds all the time

But instead of losing weigth I am gaining it. The doctors said don't worry it is the meds. I went as far as having my family videoing me eating and exceresing so that I could prove I am doing everything they are asking me to do.

But they don't give me hope about clearing me. In Oct I will have to start over getting all my clearence if these last two doctors don't clear me.

Crying every night, Prayering for the clearence to come thru. But realizing that I may have to stay like this forever.

Started at 200 pounds and now I at 247 Pounds

Hoping against Hope

[peacequeen 434]

Don't give up hope! I've been in the process since Dec 2010, I know what it's like to wait. I've read here that several have waited for years to get a surgery date. Trust your doctors, they probably have good reason for holding off. Maybe you should talk to a nutritionist because being a diabetic is tricky. You have to eat foods in moderation, it might be the way you are eating, not what you are eating or vice versa. Find someone to partner up with to help you with excercise,, bump it up to excercising once a day instead of 3 times a week. If you hadn't been excercising before, you are probably building muscle which weighs more than fat so some of the weight could be due to that. Hypothyroid is another reason the weight piles on. Make sure you're getting that checked out. Use this time to focus on your new life when you get the weight off,,whether on your own or by surgery. I've been very anxious to get surgery as well. I went through a time where surgery it seems so far from reach but now I'm finding things to keep me busy and occupy my mind. I'm doing weight watchers on my own, I'm thinking about what style clothes I want to wear when I'm smaller, all the things I'm going to do that I haven't been able to do, meditating,,anything to keep positive. The lower I feel, the more weight I gain. Good luck and keep your chin up

[SeattleSue 25]

I feel your frustration and your helplessness. I'm sorry that you are going through this... I wish there was something I could do for you--all I can offer is a prayer. Don't give up...don't lose the faith. Praying for you...

Susan

[sugarmamma7 2]

Will pray for you too sending hugs and good vibes and energy your way!

[Lilu 65]

Don't give up hope! I've been in the process since Dec 2010, I know what it's like to wait. I've read here that several have waited for years to get a surgery date. Trust your doctors, they probably have good reason for holding off. Maybe you should talk to a nutritionist because being a diabetic is tricky. You have to eat foods in moderation, it might be the way you are eating, not what you are eating or vice versa. Find someone to partner up with to help you with excercise,, bump it up to excercising once a day instead of 3 times a week. If you hadn't been excercising before, you are probably building muscle which weighs more than fat so some of the weight could be due to that. Hypothyroid is another reason the weight piles on. Make sure you're getting that checked out. Use this time to focus on your new life when you get the weight off,,whether on your own or by surgery. I've been very anxious to get surgery as well. I went through a time where surgery it seems so far from reach but now I'm finding things to keep me busy and occupy my mind. I'm doing weight watchers on my own, I'm thinking about what style clothes I want to wear when I'm smaller, all the things I'm going to do that I haven't been able to do, meditating,,anything to keep positive. The lower I feel, the more weight I gain. Good luck and keep your chin up

Thank You for you words,

But I had been working out everyday and was told to limit myself to 3 times a week. And yes i see a nutritionist every month for three years now. But the weight gain is driving me crazy.

[Lilu 65]

Well more bad news for me. The next appt for the doctors that I am waiting for is at the end of the time aloud. I have to start over again in November because the the insurance is only good for a year and then you must start again. And to add to all of my problems having trouble with my diabetes now I need to find a specialist. I just close my eyes and exhale, I feel there goes another ounce of hope. Why???????????????????????????????

[kellyw74 258]

You need to call that dr. and ask to be seen before the time expires. Tell them it is urgent and that if you are not seen what will happen. That you will have to start all over again! Most people WILL make exceptions.

Please don't give up on yourself. You are worth it! FIGHT!!

Kelly

Well more bad news for me. The next appt for the doctors that I am waiting for is at the end of the time aloud. I have to start over again in November because the the insurance is only good for a year and then you must start again. And to add to all of my problems having trouble with my diabetes now I need to find a specialist. I just close my eyes and exhale, I feel there goes another ounce of hope. Why???????????????????????????????

[peacequeen 434]

I agree with Kellyw74, fight for it!! I'm so sorry for all you are going through, I sure hope things look up for you soon.

[BetterthanIwasb4 21]

I agree with Kelly...Call the Dr....even go to the office one day and sit there if you have too...

[Lilu 65]

You need to call that dr. and ask to be seen before the time expires. Tell them it is urgent and that if you are not seen what will happen. That you will have to start all over again! Most people WILL make exceptions.

Please don't give up on yourself. You are worth it! FIGHT!!

Kelly

Thanks but I tried that but no luck I have to start over.

[A New Day 5]

Have you considered going to Mexico and doing self pay? A lot of people like Dr. Kelly and he is very reasonably priced at 5,300. Maybe you could get a 0% credit card to pay for it? I am going to Dr. Aceves in Mexico, but he is a few K more.

[log_lex 0]

Have you considered going to Mexico and doing self pay? A lot of people like Dr. Kelly and he is very reasonably priced at 5,300. Maybe you could get a 0% credit card to pay for it? I am going to Dr. Aceves in Mexico, but he is a few K more.

[log_lex 0]

I was about to make the same suggestion. I went to Mexico and Dr. Aceves did my sleeve on August 24, 2010, it was WELL worth every dime that I spent to do this. The only thing that I would do differently if I had the opportunity to redo this is that I would do it about 5-7 years earlier. This has been by far the easiest thing that I have ever been through. One of my church friends had some of the same health problems that you have and he could no longer pass the health exam to drive his truck and both he and his wife both had the sleeve by Dr. Aceves and they recommened Dr. Aceves to me. He has not had any medical problems since his surgery and he is back on the road driving again. Good luck, I will be praying for you.

[Lilu 65]

I was about to make the same suggestion. I went to Mexico and Dr. Aceves did my sleeve on August 24, 2010, it was WELL worth every dime that I spent to do this. The only thing that I would do differently if I had the opportunity to redo this is that I would do it about 5-7 years earlier. This has been by far the easiest thing that I have ever been through. One of my church friends had some of the same health problems that you have and he could no longer pass the health exam to drive his truck and both he and his wife both had the sleeve by Dr. Aceves and they recommened Dr. Aceves to me. He has not had any medical problems since his surgery and he is back on the road driving again. Good luck, I will be praying for you.

Thanks for the suggestion but Mexico is out of the question for many reasons. The roadblocks I face are medical at the moment. I just want the doctor to something now before I don't have the will to fight to get better. Once he does his part then I go again with the Cardio so he can do his part. Then wait two months and hope I get my WLS. The waiting is killing me and the fact that a new problem shows up makes me lose hope.

[fashionbugg306 0]

So sorry to hear about your troubles. Please don't give up hope. The Lord has a plan for you that you can't see or figure out at this time, but there is a reason why you are not ready for WLS at this time. I know how hard it can get. I, too, thought I completed all of pre-surgery requirements only for my insurance to deny me. The insurance is actually requesting more information from two years back before I actually decided to consider WLS. With a little more research and patience I was able to determine that I would be able to supply the information, but now I can't get into the doctor to have him fill it out the information for me. (Job has us working mandatory OT until further notice as a result of Irene. ) But I am not going to give up because these road blocks are going to making us stronger and more determined to succeed once with have the WLS.

I will pray for you that your approval is sooner rather then later. And keep up the good work because you are doing a great job at sticking to your goal and think how much this will help you once your WLS is completed.