Is it really going to happen?

[peacequeen 434]

During the waiting game, have any of you thought that you will never "really" go through the surgery or that it's not going to happen?

[Amanda131 214]

Yup. And then, when I had surgery I was sure that I'd be the only one ever that actually wouldn't lose the weight. Now I fear I will not make goal or that I will eventually gain it all back. But the level of fear now is much less than before I had surgery. Your fears are completely normal.

Amanda

[owl 0]

I started my journey on weight loss when I was 16, that 39 years ago. Tomorrow I truely hope that it is the beginning of the end to diets and plus size clothes. I am sooo looking forward to changing my lifestyle and eat to live, not live to eat. I go in a 6am tomorrow morning. Your day will come, it will. Hang in there. owl

[peacequeen 434]

Thanks, Amanda!

Owl, hope all went well for you! I know my time will come it just seems unreal till I get a date, I guess. It's just taking so long. I know others have waited much longer though.

[Intime 0]

Good luck...and we all think the dumbes things...

[minniekitty 44]

You'll be fine. I had a million and a half fears while I was waiting to be operated on, and then they gave me a Valium and I quickly set off to happy land as they wheeled me away.

I currently have some post-op depression that I'm battling, but a lot of that has to do with other things outside of my WLS. I'm 5 days out from surgery, and I am sooo glad I went through with it!

Yup. And then, when I had surgery I was sure that I'd be the only one ever that actually wouldn't lose the weight. Now I fear I will not make goal or that I will eventually gain it all back. But the level of fear now is much less than before I had surgery. Your fears are completely normal.

Amanda

I thought the same thing! I started to fear that I wouldn't lose any weight at all. Now the weight is dropping off (to the point where I'm almost scared it's dropping too fast), so I guess I can set that fear aside for now

[Fat4now 7]

I totally know the feeling! For some reason I am so obsessed with surgery right now, it feels like it won't happen. I don't know why but it feels like the surgery is never going to get here or something will happen to start me all over again... I'm having to do the 6 month diet so YES--it feels like eternity!

[ravenjeh 16]

I am so paranoid that something is going to happen between now and next month. Since I am still in the saving the last pennies stage, I'm so afraid that something will happen and I won't be able to save the last little bit. We were afraid that happened yesterday; my husband is a police officer and his shift changed without any notice which meant he couldn't work his part-time job with his new hours. But praise the Lord that he was able to switch his part-time shifts around to keep both jobs. I tell you, I was on pins and needles all day yesterday! I cannot WAIT until surgery morning and all of this is over! The excitement is a bit like Christmas morning, lol.

[Papa Jack 86]

Yes that is normal. Before then I guess I was just going through the motions. It hit me like a ton of bricks when the doctor gave me my surgery date. I was scared, excited, scared, worried, scared. I doubted myself. But a few hours later I was ready for it. I knew then I was getting my life back.

So you are normal like all of us crazy people.

PS

Now when I had my surgery, I was being wheeled down the hallway & next thing I knew someone was waking me up. I thought for sure they forgot to operate on me. I looked at me belly to make sure.

[peacequeen 434]

Thanks, everyone. It feels good to know I'm not the only "crazy" one.lol I'm on a second go round with hospital/surgeon. The first clinic didn't work out so I've had to start over. I actually got a call the other day. My pre op appt is Sept 21! I knew I made the right decision to change hospitals. It also gave me new hope that it's gonna happen!! I think as long as the conveyer belt is moving, it's easier to stay motivated.