Michelle Cicerello 6 Posted May 24, 2011 So, I am past the 2 week point, and have found today, that I have some emotions that are flooding in. Mostly happy - I am so happy for this gift that has been given me, I cannot even put into words how happy I am that I have this sleeve - every morning I wake up with a smile on my face because I know that my life is getting better every day and I am so thankful - I did get on the scale this morning and noticed that I gained 4 pounds - not sure why, or how that would even be possible, but I did, and I didnt beat myself up over it - I am guessing that maybe my body is going into "horde" mode and that may be the reason, I may need to find a way to up my Water intake and calorie intake - any input on this would be great! I also started listening to some Rascal Flatts music, and the video what hurts the most had me crying like a baby - then Sugarlands "stuck like glue" came on and I was smiling and belting it out like noones business.... whew - These emotions are all over the place today! Well I am feeling awesome, I am so happy I did this and wouldnt trade it for the world! Thanks for listening to me ramble on Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
kellyw74 258 Posted May 24, 2011 Hi Michelle, I love, love, love Rascal Flatts. They are so awesome. Gary Levox is my boyfriend!! LOL Don't worry about the gain gurl! You seriously could not have done ANYTHING to gain 4lbs!!! Probably just your body rebelling. I gained .8 today too! Wow, us Red Velvert's sure do a lot of the same crazy stuff! Could just be we are adjusting. Who knows, but I do know that I did not eat anything to warrant that and you didn't either, so don't worry about it! Keep on keepin on. It will come off , it has to! I am eating my pureed chicken salad right now and it is like a lump in my thoat, but I am doing it. I too am very happy that I was given this gift. It is a HUGE learning curve, but I am glad to be on the receiving end! Hugs, Kelly Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Michelle Cicerello 6 Posted May 24, 2011 Awww girl, see, just reading your post made me cry, and I am NOT depressed - I am just a sap!!! LOL We girls have to stick together to get through this - I am so happy to be on this journey with my Red Velvet gang! Hi Michelle, I love, love, love Rascal Flatts. They are so awesome. Gary Levox is my boyfriend!! LOL Don't worry about the gain gurl! You seriously could not have done ANYTHING to gain 4lbs!!! Probably just your body rebelling. I gained .8 today too! Wow, us Red Velvert's sure do a lot of the same crazy stuff! Could just be we are adjusting. Who knows, but I do know that I did not eat anything to warrant that and you didn't either, so don't worry about it! Keep on keepin on. It will come off , it has to! I am eating my pureed chicken salad right now and it is like a lump in my thoat, but I am doing it. I too am very happy that I was given this gift. It is a HUGE learning curve, but I am glad to be on the receiving end! Hugs, Kelly Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Kerry 1 Posted May 24, 2011 So funny...me too...i woke up today at day 15 and i feel great and all over the place as well...i feel like today for the first day i am ready to take on life!!!! So happy for my sleeve! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Michelle Cicerello 6 Posted May 24, 2011 Yes!!! that is EXACTLY how I feel!! I am SOOO happy I cant hardly stand it, and I feel so good, I havent felt this good in well, I cant remember how long!! Its like I am a new person, and everytime I think about my surgeon and the new lease on life he gave me, I really start to cry, I owe him and his team so much, much more then I could EVER repay - he is an amazing man to help so many people!!! AHHH where are the kleenex??? LOL So funny...me too...i woke up today at day 15 and i feel great and all over the place as well...i feel like today for the first day i am ready to take on life!!!! So happy for my sleeve! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
meggiep 57 Posted May 25, 2011 Awww girl, see, just reading your post made me cry, and I am NOT depressed - I am just a sap!!! LOL We girls have to stick together to get through this - I am so happy to be on this journey with my Red Velvet gang! I am so sorry it took me so long to chime in! I woke up really late today and was behind on my fluids all day so I wouldn't allow myself to post for a while until I got caught up! I am so very happy too! I never would hav thought 30 pounds would leave my body in a month....and though of course being on liquids I worked for it it is giving me the first hope I have had for a long time. Remember when Crosswind would post every day after she was sleeved? SHe reported crying every day too ;-P SO far I have not done that but give me time- and remember the fat cells release hormones as they burn so we could be all over the place emotionally in the next months! I will always feel a special bond with you Michelle and with Kelly -of course all our RVs but you two in particular are close to my heart and I never want to lose touch with you! As excited as I am to see my surgeon tomorrow I am also going to accept whatever he decides with out bumming out because more than anything I want a healed healthy thumby. I at least hope he adds cottage cheese and yogurt that is not thinned. That alone would help a LOT. I am so sick of the sweet stuff- though I can't moan too much as my two sweet drinks today have me at 84 grams of Protein, If you remember, I gained 2 pounds last week (which with our differing amounts of weight to lose is proportional) and then lost them slowly over the following three days. I figure that is why recording your weight once a week is better- there I had updated my slider and my fat secret profile and then had to wait to get back to it being true! With my whole world being Fluid, Protein, etc. it is hard not to be scale centric, huh? I love you and will always be here for you! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Michelle Cicerello 6 Posted May 25, 2011 Awww Meggie, I love you too, I really do - even though we have never met in person, we have been through so much together - it will always bond us together. Yes, I am sure that my body is doing a horde thing right now, and I know that those 4 pounds will come off - I am not being hard on myself, because I have done one hell of a job so far!! I am thankful that I have this forum to voice my emotions, my thoughts and my fears, and I am grateful that you all know exactly what I am going through. You all Rock!! I am so sorry it took me so long to chime in! I woke up really late today and was behind on my fluids all day so I wouldn't allow myself to post for a while until I got caught up! I am so very happy too! I never would hav thought 30 pounds would leave my body in a month....and though of course being on liquids I worked for it it is giving me the first hope I have had for a long time. Remember when Crosswind would post every day after she was sleeved? SHe reported crying every day too ;-P SO far I have not done that but give me time- and remember the fat cells release hormones as they burn so we could be all over the place emotionally in the next months! I will always feel a special bond with you Michelle and with Kelly -of course all our RVs but you two in particular are close to my heart and I never want to lose touch with you! As excited as I am to see my surgeon tomorrow I am also going to accept whatever he decides with out bumming out because more than anything I want a healed healthy thumby. I at least hope he adds cottage cheese and yogurt that is not thinned. That alone would help a LOT. I am so sick of the sweet stuff- though I can't moan too much as my two sweet drinks today have me at 84 grams of Protein, If you remember, I gained 2 pounds last week (which with our differing amounts of weight to lose is proportional) and then lost them slowly over the following three days. I figure that is why recording your weight once a week is better- there I had updated my slider and my fat secret profile and then had to wait to get back to it being true! With my whole world being Fluid, Protein, etc. it is hard not to be scale centric, huh? I love you and will always be here for you! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RobinMvsg 3 Posted May 25, 2011 As excited as I am to see my surgeon tomorrow I am also going to accept whatever he decides with out bumming out because more than anything I want a healed healthy thumby. I at least hope he adds cottage cheese and yogurt that is not thinned. That alone would help a LOT. I am so sick of the sweet stuff- though I can't moan too much as my two sweet drinks today have me at 84 grams of Protein, Hi Meggiep, I've always had a sweet tooth especially for chocolate, and always thought, how could anyone get tired of sweets??? Starting on week 3, I can totally sympathize with you and the getting a bit sick of the sweet stuff. I've come across gnc's amplified wheybolic extreme 60 where you get 60 grams of Protein per shake. Even though it is a bit more expensive than other brands, to me its kind of worth it to help make sure I can get all my protein in faster and in not so many shakes. So far I've only tasted the chocolate, which I found to be pretty okay. I've also bought the banana and strawberry which I haven't tried yet. Hope this gives you some ideas. We can do this!! Robin Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RobinMvsg 3 Posted May 25, 2011 Hang in there, Michelle! Maybe it's just this week for all of us...I've been hitting an emotional blue period over the past few days also. Like you I feel blessed to have received this opportunity, and I'm so excited abot my loss so far and the journey yet to come. Maybe its just that we start to think ahead and wonder about changes to come as well as those we are currently going through. This too shall pass Hang in there, Chica....we can do this!! Robin Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
meggiep 57 Posted May 25, 2011 [ Hi Meggiep, I've always had a sweet tooth especially for chocolate, and always thought, how could anyone get tired of sweets??? Starting on week 3, I can totally sympathize with you and the getting a bit sick of the sweet stuff. I've come across gnc's amplified wheybolic extreme 60 where you get 60 grams of Protein per shake. Even though it is a bit more expensive than other brands, to me its kind of worth it to help make sure I can get all my Protein in faster and in not so many shakes. So far I've only tasted the chocolate, which I found to be pretty okay. I've also bought the banana and strawberry which I haven't tried yet. Hope this gives you some ideas. We can do this!! Robin Before surgery I bought that exact brand and flavor but after surgery it absolutely made me gag! SO I have half a bag here.... sigh, The one I found before that I still actually enjoy post surgery is Champion Pro Score 100 chocolate- it tastes like dutch chocolate - I get 45 grams using 3 scoops.... and then I use Chike strawberry in my afternoon shake, with milk, for another 35 so I am at 80. Then in thevening I can have Soup or cream of whet thinned with milk or something without worrying about the protein. Maybe I will give the GNC brand another try in the hopes my taste buds have settled a bit! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
weho 103 Posted May 25, 2011 I know what you mean Michelle about feeling emotional. I have kind of felt emotional since surgery. Maybe because I was trying to numb myself before surgery just to get through it (although I had my crying spurts the day before surgery). I really thought that I would have the buyers remorse right away; enough so that I warned my husband that I would be crying "why did I do this to myself??" to which I instructed him to calm me down and to not panic. I had none of that. I feel so blessed to have come through surgery without complications, to be healing nicely, and to be losing weight. I feel like a new person. I know reality will hit when I have to go back to work in a week and a half (damn hell hole), but for now I am flying high. We really are a blessed bunch of girls, ha? Thanks girls for all of your insight! You have really helped my on my journey. Holly Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Michelle Cicerello 6 Posted May 25, 2011 I am so glad I am not the only one who is all emotional - Today I go for my first post op visit with the Dr, and I am really excited to go, because I have some questions, and I want to know when I can have some mushy food! Thank goodness for this forum and being able to share experiences and getting feedback from people who have already been through it - Take care Holly, things will only keep getting better I know what you mean Michelle about feeling emotional. I have kind of felt emotional since surgery. Maybe because I was trying to numb myself before surgery just to get through it (although I had my crying spurts the day before surgery). I really thought that I would have the buyers remorse right away; enough so that I warned my husband that I would be crying "why did I do this to myself??" to which I instructed him to calm me down and to not panic. I had none of that. I feel so blessed to have come through surgery without complications, to be healing nicely, and to be losing weight. I feel like a new person. I know reality will hit when I have to go back to work in a week and a half (damn hell hole), but for now I am flying high. We really are a blessed bunch of girls, ha? Thanks girls for all of your insight! You have really helped my on my journey. Holly Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LissyinTX 1 Posted May 25, 2011 I go see the surgeon tomorrow and am starting to get anxious like you are Michelle. I am afraid she will say that I need to stay on liquids longer than originally planned. I am supposed to go to mushies on Tuesday, perfect for when I go back to work. She might also tell me I can't go back to work. I am really not emotional, maybe because I take mood meds. I am just anxious. I have a tendency to overthink. i love watching and reading what you and meggip post because I get a lot of current feelings so I kinda know what to plan for. So good luck with the dr and the emotions. They are are to overcome, but you seem like an up beat person and you can do it! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Michelle Cicerello 6 Posted May 25, 2011 Lissy - Thanks! I really do try to be upbeat, and really have a hard time NOT being that way these days lol Good luck with your DR appointment tomorrow, and let us know how it goes, I am really hoping that I get the go ahead for mushies - I am sooo tired of liquids, I am sure you all know what I mean - my mouth wants to chew something, or have something with texture in it lol BTW I am in TX, North Dallas, I see your in the Ft. Worth area, we are about neighbors Take care. I go see the surgeon tomorrow and am starting to get anxious like you are Michelle. I am afraid she will say that I need to stay on liquids longer than originally planned. I am supposed to go to mushies on Tuesday, perfect for when I go back to work. She might also tell me I can't go back to work. I am really not emotional, maybe because I take mood meds. I am just anxious. I have a tendency to overthink. i love watching and reading what you and meggip post because I get a lot of current feelings so I kinda know what to plan for. So good luck with the dr and the emotions. They are are to overcome, but you seem like an up beat person and you can do it! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
RobinMvsg 3 Posted May 25, 2011 That's a bummer, Meggiep (btw, I love love your vlog!!). You'll find something that works. Thank God there are so many brands out there! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites