Mixed emotions less than 12 hours to go

livinglifelikeitsgolden · May 15, 2011

Hello all the sleevers out there,

My surgery is tomorrow morning at 6 am with Dr. Sinnostine in Georgetown Ky.

I was wondering if the feeling I am having are normal. First of all, I would like to say thank you for every member on this post. If it wasn't for each of you, I don't think I would have the courage to be a sleever. It definetly takes a lot of courage!!! I have had so many mixed emotions in the past few months. I get excited about the weight loss but discouraged about the idea that i have to say good bye to all my favorite foods and life as I know it. My weight gain wasn't a result of eating too much in one sitting but not eating enough meals during the day, not getting enough activity, depo shots, smokers withdraw, and eating too much resturant foods. However, i do understand that if i eat less than of course i will lose the weight. When I look at all this paper work i am afraid that i will not be able to switch up enough foods to be satisfied during the first 3 weeks of full liquid diets. How am I going to eat and maintain when I am such the picky eater? How will I feel to have 9/10 of my stomach removed? Sometimes i get angry because if my family supported me more than always teasing me and reminding me about my weight than just maybe I wouldn't go thru this to lose the weight.

On the flip side, I am excited about losing the weight, I just don't wanna fail.

Thanks all and give me some feed back.

AutumnLily · May 15, 2011

Hello all the sleevers out there,

My surgery is tomorrow morning at 6 am with Dr. Sinnostine in Georgetown Ky.

I was wondering if the feeling I am having are normal. First of all, I would like to say thank you for every member on this post. If it wasn't for each of you, I don't think I would have the courage to be a sleever. It definetly takes a lot of courage!!! I have had so many mixed emotions in the past few months. I get excited about the weight loss but discouraged about the idea that i have to say good bye to all my favorite foods and life as I know it. My weight gain wasn't a result of eating too much in one sitting but not eating enough meals during the day, not getting enough activity, depo shots, smokers withdraw, and eating too much resturant foods. However, i do understand that if i eat less than of course i will lose the weight. When I look at all this paper work i am afraid that i will not be able to switch up enough foods to be satisfied during the first 3 weeks of full liquid diets. How am I going to eat and maintain when I am such the picky eater? How will I feel to have 9/10 of my stomach removed? Sometimes i get angry because if my family supported me more than always teasing me and reminding me about my weight than just maybe I wouldn't go thru this to lose the weight.

On the flip side, I am excited about losing the weight, I just don't wanna fail.

Thanks all and give me some feed back.

The first 3 weeks of liquids can get boring real fast. Just stick to the program and you will be onto mushies and then solids in no time. You will have to be diligent on getting a minimum of 60 grams of Protein a day and having at least 64 oz of water(fluid). I personally have avoided going to restaurants as I want to maximize my losing and I have to be able to know what is in my food. So self prep is best for me. Down the road I will allow myself to go back to restaurants.

It is too bad your family feel the need to tease you about your weight. Soon enough you will be losing and they will hopefully be supportive.

Just remember the sleeve is a tool and you have to put the right kind of food in to get the best results. Making changes now will help you down the road when you can eat more and feel the urge to eat foods that will cause you to gain weight. You can lose the weight if you use your tool properly. I am almost 3 months out and have not started exercising yet. I was waiting till my 3rd month before I joined a gym, so that my healing is done and I do not have to worry about hurting myself. These are personal choices. You will find what works for you.

I am sending all my positive thoughts on a fast and pain free recovery for you. Keep us posted on your journey.

livinglifelikeitsgolden · May 15, 2011

The first 3 weeks of liquids can get boring real fast. Just stick to the program and you will be onto mushies and then solids in no time. You will have to be diligent on getting a minimum of 60 grams of Protein a day and having at least 64 oz of water(fluid). I personally have avoided going to restaurants as I want to maximize my losing and I have to be able to know what is in my food. So self prep is best for me. Down the road I will allow myself to go back to restaurants.

It is too bad your family feel the need to tease you about your weight. Soon enough you will be losing and they will hopefully be supportive.

Just remember the sleeve is a tool and you have to put the right kind of food in to get the best results. Making changes now will help you down the road when you can eat more and feel the urge to eat foods that will cause you to gain weight. You can lose the weight if you use your tool properly. I am almost 3 months out and have not started exercising yet. I was waiting till my 3rd month before I joined a gym, so that my healing is done and I do not have to worry about hurting myself. These are personal choices. You will find what works for you.

I am sending all my positive thoughts on a fast and pain free recovery for you. Keep us posted on your journey.

Thanks Lily for your kind words,

You are so right and the main reason i decided to go thru with this is because i knew that once i had the surgery, I would force myself to make the necessary changes. For instance, i only had to go on this liquid diet today and i have been very obeidient because i don't want to cause complications. That is the beauty of this surgery because I know that I will have to follow the regime for fear that something will go wrong. Once i am used to it I am sure it will be a breeze.

As far as family is concerned, they treat me like I weigh a ton. My highest weight was 305 and I am current 278. Almost everyone in my family is overweight but I am the heaviest female. Therefore, I believe they make comments to feel better about themselves. ALl i hear is once you lose the weight I am going to the gym because I don't want you the past me up and I don't wanna be fat by myself. Isn't that just stupid. I am doing this for me and my children. ALl they can think about is competion.

KellyL · May 15, 2011

Congrats that you are getting sleeved in the morning, so am I!! Yes I have a lot of mixed emotions. I alternate between fear, anxiety, excitement, etc. I think what you're feeling is very natural. We are about to make a lot of lifestyle changes. Change is scary, and we normally do resist, but it's necessary to be healthy and happy. While it requires changing our eating behavior, it will all be worth it when we can live a longer healthier life and be here for ourselves and our families. I am tired of being a spectator in life, and I want to really live. Good luck to you tomorrow and please keep us updated!!

Kelly