Thoughts the day before my surgery....

[****** 12]

Wow- Empress- I wont qu\ote you but you really helped me too! Figures- you and Crosswind the auteurs. ;-P

Thank you all for the love and support.

I am showered and almost ready to drive to the hospital- seems surreal!

See you all on the Loser's Bench!

GO MEGGIE GO!!

Very shortly we'll be doing the Boa-dacious babes Winner's Dance. xoxoxo

E

[susnl 17]

Meggie,

I am with you. I was scared out of my mind yesterday. I made my peace with God and l leave for the hospital at noon. Good luck and I am praying for you.

[kellyw74 258]

GOOD LUCK TODAY MEGGIE!!

I will be there with you!!

Kelly

[Chicadee 10]

Sending good vibes your way Meggie. Hoping that your surgery goes as smoothly as mine went last week. Our thoughts are with you.

[Puppylovemommy 8]

For me what you have said reminds me of myself. I have been the "fat chick" (on and off) since about the summer going to 10th grade. It all started that summer when I fell in love and started having sex. Oh how I wish I could turn back time! Life has been cruel to me, but I have been cruel to life. Instead of turning the other cheek, I have punched back at it! WRONG! I understand that this is a lifestyle change for the better and I wish I didn't have to go to Mexico to do it, but my insurance doesn't pay for weight loss surgery as of now. They say maybe in 5 or 10 years??? I DON'T HAVE 5 YEARS!!! I will die if I don't do something now and leave a young child who is 6 now and an older daughter who is almost 20 motherless. I lost my own mother 2 years ago at the age of 42 and I can tell you it was the hardest thing I have ever had to deal with in my life. I am tearing up just talking about it. I have to admit that it has made me a better person. My mother was the best! She would not want me to mourn her like I did, and I used food to wash the grief down. Now I'm in this boat that I have to do something now. Exercise they say!!! Haha.....when I walk through Walmart my back starts hurting. I take 1 to 1 1/2 pain meds per day just to get through daily life. I cannot clean my entire house in one day. It takes me weeks and it never stays clean at the same time. I want that to stop!!! This is insane! I want my old life back.............whatever that was because I was never this fat before in my life. It is truly effecting my everyday life!