Day 14. Halfway to Okay.

[crosswind 134]

Two weeks out and I dropped another two pounds on the scale. This morning I had a bottle of Water with Nexium in it, a hot cup of very weak Decaf earl gray with splenda and milk, and I'm working on another bottle of Fiji.

Last night I started getting tired around 6 PM. I also tried to eat a smoothie and every time I attempt one of these I can only eat a quarter of it so I'm starting to collect cups of infinished milk solids everywhere.

My energy is for shit. My primal memory is recalling the days not so long ago that low energy meant Taco Bell or a bag of Tostitos so it's weird to look in the fridge, gaze upon the contents for several seconds and think...nah.

It's just the weirdest experience to not be hungry. I used to have an appetite like a draft horse. I woke up hungry, was starving by ten pm wihether I had eaten Breakfast or not, eat through whatever stress sonata my head was playing, take a break from paperwork by ripping open a bag of something, My hunger was so strong and so sharp I would never bother to cook because I really couldn' t wait that long,

I also used to be a diet soda addict. I would rip into one of these just about the minute I woke up -- caffeine, bubbles, hydration, hallelujah. This morning the bottle of Fiji water on the counter was actually desirable. I wanted it. In fact after thousands of failed attempts to find something to replace my diet soda I realize there's nothing. Crystal Light blows. fruit juice has calories and can be acidic.

I can see all these mini-choices are going to add up to a completely different way of operating my refrigerator.

in other news, this is the last day I have to pack that gauze. One more step towards becoming a person and not a patient.

I'm giving day 14 a C plus.

[TijuanaPlication 87]

Glad to hear you're getting there!!

[Day Dreamer 23]

I'm giving day 14 a C plus.

Ahh don't sell yourself short.. I say it sounds like your day 14 was closer to a B!! You seem to have a very good understanding of when and why you would eat - that has to be worth some points It sounds like you might need some options... have you tried the Syntrex Protein Nectars? Powerade zero with Protein Powder? - anything to shake up the routine of just water...

Keep up the good work and stay positive!!