Now I'm having second thoughts....

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Jessica

I have 2 weeks to go as well. Sure I am nervous but I keep thinking about the alternative.

It took me 2 years to even think about calling the doctor. I would watch those shows on Discovery Channel about people who needed 10 paramedics to move them to a hospital or the guy who had surgery in time for his High School reunion. I wanted to be those people and did not think there was any way I ever could get there. Finally one day I was mentally ready to do it. I made the phone call. For me that was the hardest part.

I think a big reason I was able to take that step was getting my depression under control. My doctor required a psych eval before I could get scheduled. I would advise the same for you. Go see someone and see what they advise. Maybe your surgeon's office can reccomend someone who specializes in bariatric surgery.

Don't get discouraged, just take each thing step by step.

[Jachut 487]

Second thoughts are healthy and normal, so are nerves on the day of surgery. I've only ever had elective surgery before, but for some reason this felt much different, much less medical surgery and more about vanity, which really it was for me. So I really had very bad nerves on the day, I've also not had surgery with 3 kids waiting at home for me too.

But I cant tell you how glad I am I did this and how much it has changed my life. Its hard here, when you hear the problems people have etc, but I for one have never had pain, have never PB'd, can eat any food and am still losing weight. I hit the 80's yesterday (I work in kilograms) and now weigh less than I did than at the height of my first pregnancy 11 years ago - and I wasnt even overweight then. Its nothing short of miraculous.

I felt very scared about giving up comfort food - but to be honest, I have never enjoyed my food like I do now that it has no sinister power over me. I am able to enjoy good food without being scared that I will lose control and eat too much.