Self sabotage?

[OnTheFenceMomma 0]

Hi Folks,

I'm pretty new here so I'll introduce myself. My name is Martha and I'm having my sleeve done in June, when the semester is over and I can take the summer off to focus on exercise and eating right. I'm a single mom and in school. I also volunteer as in intern for a Judge in family court.

I've gone thru almost the entire process at Kaiser South San Francisco; classes, weigh ins, appointments with Psych and surgeon. It's really exhausting, and expensive, as I live about an hour away.

Last week my surgeon cleared me for surgery and told me not to gain any wait before the big day. He asked me to get below a certain weight, and I did but, it was close. As soon as I left the hospital, I got nervous and anxious about the actual surgery. I watch lots of video's and vlogs on youtube of people who have done it and are succeeding. They are actually the people who gave me to courage to seek out the surgery. If they can do it, why can't I? KWIM?

The problem is, ever since I left the doctors office I feel like eating everything. I actually made brownies and ended up eating most of them. UGH! Seriously, what was I thinking? FOOD! CHOCOLATE! YUM! That's what I was thinking. I really struggle with food addiction so I'm working on getting past cravings and finding ways to get my mind off it. The thought of actually going thru the surgery, is scaring the beeezuz out me. Right now, I want to go for a walk but it's pouring rain outside and that's my excuse. Lame! I know!

Has anyone else felt like they were sabotaging themselves? How did you get yourself out of this mindset? I've got three months to go and it's seems like a looooong weight.

Thanks for reading.

[Becca 108]

I had been doing that all of my adult life. I went on a binge before I had my revision surgery thinking I would be so depressed if I couldn't eat all of my favorite foods. Then I had the sleeve. With the sleeve, I just don't feel controlled by food anymore. I get sick if I were to overeat, so I don't. I don't even want junk food anymore really at all. The sleeve is an amazing tool. Good luck and hang in there! Your sleeve date will be here before you know it.

[AutumnLily 77]

When I made up my mind to have the sleeve I spent the next 6 months making sure I ate from my favourite food places. About 2 months before the surgery I really cut back but allowed myself the occasional bad food. When it came down to my last week when I had to be on a low carb diet I stuck to it. The closer I got the better I got about what I was putting in my mouth.