feedyoureye 3,087 Posted January 23, 2011 Oh my gosh girl! You really are starting a new life soon! I guess one step at a time. Your going to have to peel those layers one at a time, and shine some light on them and slowly become the new woman that you will be. You will be so rich with experience and yet you have so much more to learn. This is good! Just remember to be kind to yourself and take it slow. Thats what I think anyway. Keep up here, we all want the best for you. Maybe make a list of goals. Perhaps even make a statement of what your purpose in life might be, These will help you stay on track when you feel in a whirlwind sometimes. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
treequeen 13 Posted January 23, 2011 My hope is that losing weight... maybe someone I am attracted to will actually be attracted to me back. I too wouldn't be attracted to myself like this so I can't expect anyone else to be. I have been the biggest person (or nearly so) since kindergarten. I have always been isolated so the fear and trust issues are definatly there. When getting hit on so often turned out to be a joke, knowing when it's real is pretty impossible. My biggest fear is that when I reach goal, ppl still won't like me and I won't have the weight to blame. Of course... after all the emotional turmoil we've experienced because of our weight over the years, a little more over our weight loss won't kill us. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites