SarahS 13 Posted December 16, 2010 I wrote a month or so ago how I have struggled for years with eating disorders. Last time, I could not tell my NUT. I wanted to so bad, but I just couldn't get it out. I felt so dumb. Its hard for me to talk, at least when it's about something so personal. I have always been that way. I am just afraid she won't care. I know that sounds stupid. UGH, I don't know what to do. I see her next week and want to tell her. I made myself vomit again today. I don't want to ever do it again, but thats what I told myself last time. I have thrown up only 2 times since being sleeved, but that is 2 times too many. So, I just wanted to see if I could get some advice on how to tell her about whats going on. I think the main thing is that it is just so hard to say those words.....eating disorder. And to tell her that I lied. I know I need counseling. I am going to work on that. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
chilo1 62 Posted December 16, 2010 Sarah, believe me, i know that for you it's a huge deal (telling her i mean) but it's not something she hasn't heard before. Just tell her the truth, the sooner the better, or else your surgery will have been for nothing, the best of luck! Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
myrori 55 Posted December 16, 2010 Please tell someone, anyone, the NUT or a psychologist . You don't want to hurt your stomach. They say the hardest part of getting help is admitting you need it. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
thinoneday 445 Posted December 16, 2010 Hi Sarah, I'm so sorry to hear that. . but if we were perfect we'd walk on Water right? We're not perfect it makes us who we are HUMAN. . . here is a little suggestion, if you can't tell her, just print what you've written on this post and give it to her. . . she can read for herself. . . but either way she needs to know. . .the doctors aren't psyhics they need to hear from us our problems. . . just give her the note. . . good luck Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
determined1 3 Posted December 16, 2010 This must be very hard, and I'm sorry your going thru this. Please tell her, she can direct you in the right direction. She has been educated on how to help you, just let her.... Good luck , please keep us posted. God bless. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
vicki s 146 Posted December 16, 2010 I am so sorry your going thru this sarah, you really need to tell someone, I am praying for you and hope you are feeling better soon. write her a letter, sometimes that is easier than saying it outloud, once she reads it, it is out there and talking about it will be easier. Good luck to you and feel better, vicki Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
LilMissDiva Irene 3,282 Posted December 16, 2010 ((((Sarah)))) I've battled eating disorders in the past too. Even bingeing is an eating disorder, so I've pretty much been on both sides of the spectrum. Vomiting is very dangerous for the sleeve, so I beg you to seek help ASAP. We are all here for you regardless, so please let us know how it goes when you tell her. Yes, getting professional help for eating disorders is a great idea too. I'm sure everything will turn out fine. You know there is a problem, that is the first step to recovery. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
M2G 1,836 Posted December 16, 2010 OOooh, writing a note is a great idea. Sometimes emotions get in the way, and once you start crying, or feeling emotional, it might be harder to tell her exactly what she needs to know. I think writing it all down and having her read it is such a good idea. We are all human, and we all make mistakes, but you definitely do not want to keep repeating those mistakes, and you know you need help, and I think she will know exactly what direction to send you for that help. I know admitting that you lied is hard to do, but just keep imaginging how much better you will feel once you have this off your chest. I have SO much more respect for someone that can admit they lied and own up to their issues/problems. That is called putting one foot in front of the other and going forward in the right direction. You can do this. Hugs. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Secret Surgery 34 4 Posted December 16, 2010 Sarah first off props to you for asking for help and admitting your problem. I was thinking maybe you could send here a email. Kinda impersonal but that might make it easier to share everything. Then when you go to your next appt. She knows all and you guys go from there. Good luck to you. Keep us posted. I really hope you make it through this ok. 1 LilMissDiva Irene reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites