Not sleeping...

[Kimmy 0]

I am getting the sleeve on Friday, Dec 3, 2010. I am so excited and nervous at the same time. I've been waking up in the middle of the night and can't back to sleep. My mind is racing. I tried to get this surgery last July, my husband went with me to the first two initial doctor appointments, we were both so excited about it. After three months of dieting, psyc, and physical assessment - Aetna turned me down. Looking back, this was probably a blessing. At the first of Oct last year, my husband was diagnosed with Pancreatic Cancer. If I would have had the surgery, it would have been during that time and I would have been a mess. My husband died on May 14, 2010 - My focus now is to get healthy and not to leave my children parentless. Aetna approved me this year (I guess, I've been fat enough long enough???) But, now I have noone to help me the way a spouse would help each other. I don't know if that makes sense. I have three children - all grown, and they would do anything for me, but I guess I'm nervous about being alone going through this..... There is no doubt in my mind I want to have this done. I know husband wanted me to have it, he would have loved to see me sexy again! LOL - he thought I was sexy at my heaviest (goofy man). We were married for 26 years when he died. I have told some of the ladies from church I'm having this done and they are very supportive and I know they are praying hard for me. Maybe I'll take some Advil PM tonight!

[Kimmes 38]

Kimmy - from one Kim to another - I will keep you in my prayers. Please do take some advil PM you need your rest - Friday will be here before you know it. It sounds like you have had quite the journey to get to this place.

I cannot imagine the pain of losing a spouse - it sounds like he was encouraging you to have this surgery and to live a health life. God will keep you safe and all of us are here for support if you need it. It sounds like you are surrounded by love and support. Have faith, God will place his healing hands on you and guide you through this surgery. Blessings and prayer going your way!

Kim

[iegal 460]

What a blessed woman you are to have been loved by such a wonderful man! He does not sound like a goofy man but a very wise man and I am terribly sorry for such a loss in your life. Do you have someone who will be able to be with you at the hospital and when you come home?

sleep well Kimmy. Be careful on the meds, my nut said NO asprin type meds 1 week before surgery due to possible excess bleeding. Call office tomorrow and get some suggestions.

ocgal