Howdy from Texas

disappearingdiva · August 6, 2010

So let me tell you a story. The story of me, the story of heavy me. We could use words like obese, morbidly obese or even super morbidly obese if you would to go the medical route. OR we could go the fluffy, thick, or even the visually disgusting plump if you want to revert to your childhood or minimize the impact I?m doing to my body. No matter what words you use I need help.

Ten years ago I was sitting in a doctors office going over details of gastric bypass surgery. Talking about the positives and negatives. Talking about the percentages, skin aprons and even the boost in my sex drive. I wasn?t convinced. I was young. I could do this on my own. All it would take is a bit of willpower and a bit of working out. I would change my life. I would be thin. Then my father died. Then I graduated college. Then I got serious with a boy. Dating. Moving. Job. Moving. New Job. Building House. Suburbs. Marriage. Baby. Shit! It?s been 10 years. Here I sit at the grand age of 33 heavier then I?ve ever been.

My body hurts. My mattress has permanent indention from my ass. I feel fat. I have a beautiful son who deserves a healthy mother. If I were to stay at my current weight, or with my record even heavier, my life shorter with him and the quality of life I have with him will not be what he and I both deserve. It?s time. SO?.I started doing research and decided the gastric sleeve or VSG is the way for me to go. I want to assure you that I?m not rushing into this transition it?s been years in the making, so has my ass size by the way. I know this is the change I need.

I?m still far off from my surgery. According to the puppet master AKA the insurance company I have six months of dieting with my doctor before I can approve surgery. Currently I?m on month two. My doctor is all for the surgery. She is currently having me journal both food and emotional to track my behaviors and triggers with food. She also believes a heavy dosing of anti-depressants will help. If all goes well I will be having the surgery in December.

I started a blog like allot of you One divas journey with gastric sleeve surgery for dramatic weight loss

Swiftflow · August 7, 2010

Hello from a fellow Texan. I can relate to much of your struggle as I just had my VSG at age 40 and I have been failing at diets since age 15. I was always one who saw some early success in dieting before I would fall off the wagon even after 50lbs or more loss. So in a way I thought I could do it on my own if I could somehow just stick with it this time... Luckily I had a male friend of mine who went through wls and this broke my macho man attitude of doing it all on my own. As I have studied obesity and seen such a high diet failure rate for the morbidly obese, I finally decided that the sleeve was the tool for me. The sleeve is awesome indeed! I don't have real hunger anymore. In fact, just last night I had one of my episodes of "I should eat something while watching TV" again no physical hunger just old habits.. I was able to eat something very small with protien in it (just 100 calories) and get past it. Before VSG this would have been a time where I downed half a bag of chips or leftover pizza etc--so the tool has helped me both in regular eating and during my "I just want to eat" phases.

Anyway, glad you are here! I think you will find the sleeve to be just the tool you need to have long term success.

disappearingdiva · August 7, 2010

Thank you for your words of encouragement I really appreciate them. It's funny that you live in Denton I live in Savannah off 380 so were neighbors. Small world right?

texaschick · August 8, 2010

Welcome! You will find a lot of good info here. It is also a great sounding board to bounce things off of.

There is a common regret that you will hear when you ask people that have had their tiny tummies for a while - I wish I had done it sooner.

I had my surgery on June 8th and turned 50 on June 11th. I try not to look back on all of the years that I was fat, I am only looking forward to all of the new and wonderful things I am going to do!

Carrie · August 8, 2010

Welcome, I'm not too far from you here in Wylie. I am 32. I already have the Lap Band and we fight daily. My Lap Band experience has been horrible. I am waiting for the "puppet master" to grant me the ability to have surgery, I've already had the it's "experimental" and I'm all about being called Frankencarrie and lose some weight. I like you blog and will keep track of it. I have two girls ages 5 and 1.