Scared, frustrated and excited

[erudite_diva 0]

What is wrong with me? First, I'm frustrated. Frustrated for a multitude of reasons, not all related to this weight loss journey but certainly impacting it and my lack of progress. Just indicates more work that I need to do internally which makes me a little more afraid. But my frustration is with the fact that I was referred to and chose to go with a doctor in Baltimore though I live in Gaithersburg and a closer center/doctor would have been right near me in Rockville, MD at Shady Grove but that's incidental I suppose. The real frustration is that now I only need to get the upper endoscopy then submit all the information to my insurance company...finally the surgery date which excites me. I am having a hard time getting anyone to take time off their job to drive me to and from this appointment which is rather out of the way for me and anyone I know. Their rules dictate I can't possibly use a cab so I HAVE to find someone to do this for me and it's hard asking folks to take time off their job for me.

At any rate, if I have to reschedule this, the next available appointment at this moment will be 7/22 and as a single parent, I'm going to most definitely need this surgery performed before school starts and hopefully while he's visiting with his father for a week. I'm just so frustrated about this because it seems so small but added to the other major life stressers I have right now, makes me almost feel like this might be the straw that broke the camel's back. I wish I could just conveniently switch to a closer doc rather than this one that was referred to me. Yeah, right like that'll ever happen seamlessly even if it made sense. *sigh*

I guess I had to vent. Pray for me, send up positive thoughts because I'm so scared about where I am right now emotionally just given some other major life stressers which I pray won't set me up for messing up even after the surgery. *trying to remain as optimistic as I was a month ago*

[Nikkeystar 12]

I'm praying that everything works out for you.

[mila1013 0]

i know exactly how you feel, I am also a single parent so exactly but to top it off, my family, siblings do not support me at all-I should just eat less and exercise more. I jsut went thru that 2 weeks ago for my endo, i asked my friend, what you can do is drive yourself, then have them pick you up with someone else to take your car when they are done work-that is what i did, just tell them in the endoscope area what time they close to make sure, or find a friend that is not working, let us know, i have had 11 surgeries, drop off and pick up was only done once by a family member others were friends....i truly know your pain...let me know if i can help further

Mila

[GeorgieGirl1957 0]

There's nothing wrong with you. You are feeling appropriately frustrated. It's hard to get all psyched up for this major change, only to be dropped on your butt. But it will work out...eventually. Try to take a deep breath and keep on keeping on.

Maybe try calling your insurance company and ask for a second referral, closer to home? Maybe you could ask if the one near you is on their provider list and if not, you might be able to get him/her but have to pay a little more out of pocket? Are there any dial-a-ride for medical reasons around you?

I'm sensing that maybe your friends / family aren't on board with you getting the surgery and perhaps that might be part of their inability/unwillingness to help you with a ride? Also, ask the medical center if you can provide them with an emergency contact number, and take a taxi there, and have someone pick you up after the procedure? Then no one has to take a full day off work. Or have the endoscopy at a place closer to Gaithersburg.

Just brainstorming some ideas here. You are right, there is a lot of distance between G'burg and Baltimore. I wish you well in sorting this out.

~GG1957

[erudite_diva 0]

Mila, their protocol is someone HAS to come in with me and they HAVE to come up for me after recovery. So I can't even take a cab which was my plan....SUCKS! Still trying to find someone to drive me tomorrow or I'll have to reschedule and maybe get in two weeks, if i'm lucky.

[erudite_diva 0]

oh no GeorgieGIRL...i'm TOTALLY psyched about the surgery and READy for the changes BUT i'm scared because i know RIGHT NOW, i'm not in the best place mentally and THAT scares the hell out of me. I wonder if I'll screw myself in some way because of it. I need to work on this before surgery is even scheduled.

[erudite_diva 0]

There's nothing wrong with you. You are feeling appropriately frustrated. It's hard to get all psyched up for this major change, only to be dropped on your butt. But it will work out...eventually. Try to take a deep breath and keep on keeping on.

Maybe try calling your insurance company and ask for a second referral, closer to home? Maybe you could ask if the one near you is on their provider list and if not, you might be able to get him/her but have to pay a little more out of pocket? Are there any dial-a-ride for medical reasons around you?

I'm sensing that maybe your friends / family aren't on board with you getting the surgery and perhaps that might be part of their inability/unwillingness to help you with a ride? Also, ask the medical center if you can provide them with an emergency contact number, and take a taxi there, and have someone pick you up after the procedure? Then no one has to take a full day off work. Or have the endoscopy at a place closer to Gaithersburg.

Just brainstorming some ideas here. You are right, there is a lot of distance between G'burg and Baltimore. I wish you well in sorting this out.

~GG1957

The dial a ride is a great idea. I looked into car services and medical non emergency transport....can't afford either!! WOW. i wondered if my insurance would cover the medical non emergency transport but because i'm not disabled or elderly, that would be like pulling teeth with my insurance company, I'm sure.

I thought about trying to get a doctor closer but that would be too time consuming just to do that when i NEED this done before school starts (fingers crossed) and it is likely I might have the same transportation issue if they also won't let me take a cab.....nobody is going to take time off their job to take me so I may be stuck....I'll have to figure this out VERY quickly. This only adds to my stress and frustration.

[erudite_diva 0]

My spirits are a bit lifted since I FINALLY got a ride for tomorrow!! I got some help locating someone who is willing to ride with me and drive back. YEAH!!! Wow! That really puts me a lot closer to surgery....I'm psyched but definitely trying to get a handle so I can keep my head about my eating. I need to be success-minded. I know this is going to be awesome and life changing.

[mp8btpc 33]

My spirits are a bit lifted since I FINALLY got a ride for tomorrow!! I got some help locating someone who is willing to ride with me and drive back. YEAH!!! Wow! That really puts me a lot closer to surgery....I'm psyched but definitely trying to get a handle so I can keep my head about my eating. I need to be success-minded. I know this is going to be awesome and life changing.

Yay, glad you found some assistance. You are on your way. Your gonna do great.:001_unsure: