Feeling Down

[wannabehealthy 0]

Hi There,

I'm feeling so down, this waiting process is getting the best of me today. I am currently in process-been denied by Blue Cross Anthem, appealed & waited 30 days-denied again. Now I sent in my IMR stuff to Sacramento, which means another 30-45 day wait for an answer, then IF I am approved, my surgeon requires a pre-op visit 30 days prior to surgery (their rules), so that means Sept would be the most likely first opportunity to get a surg date, that is only IF I am approved. I am hopeful that it will all work out, but to be honest, I am SICK of BEING FAT! I hate that another summer is going by and I don't want people staring at me, I have to wear pants to the beach/pool, I am so tired and lack energy, I get winded easily, I don't want to go anywhere, I am sensitive to the sun, I just am not enjoying life anymore. I won a raffle the other day with 2 lift tickets to Mammoth and the "skinny" girl next to me immediately asks "Oh, do you know anyone who skis?" Obvious that being as fat as I am that I cannot ski! I am sick of the discrimination that I feel because of being fat. I want to be treated like a normal human being. I feel like I have to fight every day to not be those stereotypes that the public think fat people are. It's exhausting. I just want to be me. This is not me. This outer shell of 90lbs is not me. Thank God my husband is supportive. He is my rock. Ok, that is my rant, Thanks for listening!

[KRYSTL166 0]

I totally understand where your coming from! I have lots to lose and hate it.! I'm going to do strict diet for a surrogacy that I'm fixng to do and then I'm going to mexico next year to get sleeved! I just want that normal life also! Hang in there and I hope everything is approved for you soon!

Krystl

[kaydefowlr 0]

Chin up! It will all work out in the end. I have 226 lbs to lose so I def know how you feel. LOL. At least you have a husband - someone whom you can turn to. That is lovely - I'm hoping to get one of those one day after I'm at goal. LOL. Hang in there. We hear you and you aren't alone. Hugs.