Food Funeral

[PurricanChick 0]

1 day before I start my PreOp liquid Diet

7 days Until my Trip

10 days Until my Surgery

9-5-09

Life has a funny way of working?.

People unexpectedly pop into your life

that you never thought you would see again?

I feel happier these days, even more confident then I have in years?

Not afraid to be who I am? excited to think of who I will become?

food Funeral

For as long as I can remember you were there.

You comforted me when I was sad, lonely, bored, depressed.

You held my hand when I was happy;

you were by my side when I was in love.

You laid next to me when I was heartbroken.

You saw me through my worse,

You rewarded me through my best.

But now its time to let you go, and put my dependency for you to rest.

I don?t need you as much as you think I do.

I will not be weak, I will not give into your temptation

The only cravings I will desire is to love myself

The only hungry I will feel is the hunger for success and self assurance

I will no longer look at you as a temporary solution to a complicated emotion

Rather a tool that gives me energy to live a productive life full of devotion

I say farewell to the lonely days that I filled my mouth with meaningless garbage

The evenings where I embraced that second or third helping.

To those nights where I tossed and turned uncomfortably extended

looking at the ceiling emotionally suspended.

I don?t hate you, but I cant count on you to feed my emotions.

I cant count on you to fill the voids that should be filled with motivation, and determination The cracks and crevices that should flow with desire and inspiration.

I don?t want to WANT you I want to NEED you

To give me the energy I need to persevere to enjoy life with out this addiction, And to finally see clear?.

[Ky.hen 5]

Amen Sister