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I was banded yesterday and had a medium hernia repaired (a 2 for 1 special :) )

Yesterday flew by. I was in surgery for 8AM and in my bed at home by 11Am

Sipping Water at the clinic post surgery I felt so sick. Water tricking down gas bubbling up.

The nurse immediately withdrew 10cc from the band and I relaxed.

The drugs keep the pain away and wear off an hour too soon. Yesterday I felt positive and confident.

Today i am flooded with emotions ( the monkeys chattering in my head) Shame; I failed at keeping weight off and resorted to surgery. Fear; What if I fail again. Sadness; oh and grief; I can't binge anymore .....especially when I am feeling Shame, Fear, Sadness.

My body hurts. Just writing lifts my spirit.....or wait maybe that's the drugs kicking in :)

I will make it through today, for now I am here feeling like I am on a roller coaster

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Just breath take it day by day ... you will conquer the gas, pain, fear, anxiety, and you will be a better healthier you!

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All you are feeling is perfectly normal. Even the no more bingeing part. There is a sort of grief process for food as we used to know it. That too will pass...especially as you see positive things happening. I can tell you with complete certainty after 9 months that losing this weight feels so much better than eating to excess ever felt. and the fact that I do ot binge or overeat makes me feel empowered and in control. Again...a much better feeling than the pleasure of overeating. Hang in there...you will see what I mean soon enough. Welcom to the other side!

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I know those chattering monkeys -- they are full of crap! Send them on their way. You have been through a lot -- anesthesia and medication can take their toll, Take it easy and best wishes for a speedy recovery and reentry into your life. YOUR LIFE. Love the comments above re: grief, etc. know that you are not alone.

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I know those chattering monkeys -- they are full of crap! Send them on their way. You have been through a lot -- anesthesia and medication can take their toll, Take it easy and best wishes for a speedy recovery and reentry into your life. YOUR LIFE. Love the comments above re: grief, etc. know that you are not alone.

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I was banded on Monday, I asked myself all the same things. How did I get to this point? How did I fail (failure is a hard pill for me to swallow). Now I focus on my new goal. I found that ensure clear was a great thing to drink during the clear phase. Hang in there and focus on the new you.

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I was banded on Monday, I asked myself all the same things. How did I get to this point? How did I fail (failure is a hard pill for me to swallow). Now I focus on my new goal. I found that ensure clear was a great thing to drink during the clear phase. Hang in there and focus on the new you.

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Thanks all. Had a great night's sleep thanks to medication. I laughed early in the night and said to my partner, " Both these are good drugs. I can hear A Mariachi band " turned out not to be the drugs. It was Nuit Blanche night here in Toronto and there was a Mariachi band going up and around the street during the night.

Today already is a better day

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Thanks all. Had a great night's sleep thanks to medication. I laughed early in the night and said to my partner, " Both these are good drugs. I can hear A Mariachi band " turned out not to be the drugs. It was Nuit Blanche night here in Toronto and there was a Mariachi band going up and around the street during the night.

Today already is a better day

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