Lap band surgery in 2008

[meg1234 1]

I had my lap band in February of 2008 and by August of 2008 I had gone from a starting highest weight of 390 lbs to 269lbs. I had my Protein managed my life in full control had just turned 40 felt confident and felt as if I was on the way to goal weight. My reason for the surgery was for my health because I have three young children and I want to be here to see them grow up. For the first time I started to realize sadly that people treat you different as you become thinner. I remember wondering why this man was waiting to hold a door for me going into work one day and when I told my thinner friends they said don't people always hold doors for you. People were proud of me and I was amazed at the weight loss and the way I was making myself a priority and how I could do things wiht my kids. On my 4oth birthday I was called into my bosses office and let go in a lay off and than was unemployed and found a job shortly and within a week found out I was pregnant which was unexpected considering I had done infertility treatment for years . I learned quickly that my baby was notto growing and for agonizing weeks I went three times a weeek only to see my baby not growing and his heart rate dropping and I felt destroyed when I miscarried at 14 weeks, I started to gain weight after that not caring about myself went into a deep depression for months over the loss of my baby developed pnuemonia and than had to move and had financial problems and it has been year after year of reason why I have not followed the lap band and why I gave up all excuses and now I have gained back 60 pounds of weight and feel bad a bout myself feel as if I am a failure and trying to pick up the pieces to loose this weight and get back to healthy. I went to a waterpark with my kids and got stuck in the float device that my husband had to pull it off me while people watched and my medical health has failed I now have high blood pressure and high cholestoral stress out of control . So my lap band story is not the best but there is still chance for change and the time has come I make the change because now at 45 I feel the depression and frustration and hear the comments of how I had surgery and it faile and she gained so much weight back how could she and it hurts. I don't want to die from obesity. My mom is in a nursing home because she is so obese she cannot walk now and needs 24 hour care and I dont want my kids to see me like that. Well I have shared my story and I need support to reach my goal because I just can't seem to get that mindset when your first banded and that feeling back which i need. I just dont take care of myself and need advice and support to get back on track

[Cocoabean 430]

Thank you for having the courage to post here. It must have been hard to do so.

YOU are not a failure. You have been through some things. It is time to make yourself a priority again. You did NOT gain all the weight back, that is GREAT. I am sorry to read of the loss of your baby. Depression is a horrible disease, but there is help for it. Seek out medical attention for it. That can help you with your band jorney as well.

Then get to your band surgeon and get it all checked out. Get a fill if needed. Go back to band rules eating.

Best wishes to you.

[JOANNE M HOLL 388]

I think we are proud of you for sharing your story. Lean on us for a bit and do call your Bariatric Centre and request help. Your GP should also be aware of your high BP & etc. and follow your health including your depression. If you have kept a file or any records, please review what you went through after original banding. Read "The Big Book on the LAP BAND" as it is so inspirational. Find a local group and attend meetings. And now that summer is here walk, walk & walk. Get a buddy or Hubby to walk with you. I have a next door neighbor who has a bike & she & her 3 youngsters go biking together many evenings. Turn off the TV, get out of the kitchen and change your thoughts to a happy future. You can do it!