Feeling down

[msidders79 9]

I have been banded since 7-1-13 n like minimi said redefining relationships n it had been emotional but I think it's all because I'm changing to become a better me and putting me first and that's a strange feeling for me. I have ups and down days. Also freaked out because my sister in law told her sister about my band and I didn't want anyone to know but it all passed. my first fill was Monday which brought a whole new set of emotions but I find myself making better choices for me and can't wait to reach my goal weight n never have to shop at lane Bryant again.

Hold on the emotions will even out . If not I agree with Stephanie see someone it will help. You are on this journey to be the best you so all support can help

Thanks for the kind words and support.. I am curious to see what you have to say about the emotions you are feeling after your fill?

[readysetg070113 1,476]

The full wasn't bad although I did feel the liquid go in the band and it freaked me out which made me wonder if I made the right choice to get banded I guess I'm resistant to change. Day of my fill I got weighed by the nurse n gained 3 lbs I was upset I have been eating 1000-1200 calories how can that be he assured me it was normal but old feelings of defeat came back. Then I felt anxious cause I didn't tell many people and of course an old friend invited me for lunch n I had to decline I felt like the dear in headlights. Tuesday night I resumed my spin class after a 6 week hiatus n was nervous . I didn't tell Instructor about surgery n worried I would hurt my stomach it felt weird but the dr cleared me so all ok. After class I felt like me. I guess this journey like life is full of ups n downs only in the ups and downs this month I never found my comfort in the bottom of a bag of whatever .... I just remind myself I made this choice for a healthy life... N it feels good scary cause its unknown but good. Im learning as i go ...Can't promise I won't have emotional up and downs with each phase but I just get through it. I find comfort logging on here and reading post. A community of virtual strangers I feel closer to people here then my closest friends who are encouraging but just don't understand. N now today I wake up feeling back to normal despite my emotional week due to the fill n some personal issues. The band is my reminder I chose me and my happiness and I'm slowly getting rid of people who no longer bring me happiness. (Long story different thread lol) I choose to be happy and healthy

[Lori123 170]

Don't let ANYONE sabotage you! You can choose who you share your life with and those people clearly are not supporting you. Yes you will feel all kind of emotions but don't feel defeat! There will be plateau's along the way but more happy moments when that scale starts going down, and it will! We are all here for you. Believe me I' e been in the black hole of depression but no more. You just keep plugging along and be patient. You will be so happy with the new you !