I Wish to Understand that Which I Do Not

[tigers1998 35]

Dear LBT members, Since joining this site I have received invaluable information and many words of encouragement. I have been banded for all of five days now and I have made some crazy decisions (aka mistakes). To know me is to know that this is common. I have often believed that was put on this Earth as a source of Comedy Relief and a beacon of Joy in tough times. Im cool with that. I do believe laughter is the best medicine. If you can't laugh at life than you will most likely cry through it (or some other unhappy thing.). Anyways, I have also be sadden by some of the posts I have read. It hurts me when others are hurting emotionally and physically. For the later, I can only refer you to the doctor. I don't know how to cure a lot of physical ailments. But emotionally, yea who hasn't been there. So in the spirit of concern and wanting to help, I wish to understand something. Why are there a lot of people who are discouraged when they overeat, or their not losing weight fast enough, or they still feel fat after losing so much weight? Some close to me even admit to feeling bad when they overeat. As for me, I felt pain when I overate, when I ate, and when I didn't eat for years: physical pain. I guess the emotional never needed to take root. Im usually the "oops that was not the smartest move I just made" type of person. Have I had body image issues: Yes. But I know what I want fixed is not going to happen without surgery: Im top heavy and have been so since I was eight years old. I just make peace with the issue until I can do something to change it. Im most emotionally effected when I make mistakes that affect others. Even then I used to take the path of NOT wanting to eat. This does not make the situation better...by the way. Making peace and if possible fixing what I have done is what solves the problem. That and I have a very strong spiritual belief system. (This is not everyone's choice though so moving on.) What I want to say is this: Early on I learned through trials and self inspection, that you have to love yourself where you are NOW, not focus the thing you are trying to fix, but love YOURSELF IN THE NOW!. Reflect on what it is you really want in life. I want to be healthy, I want to have a family of my own, I want a job I enjoy. I love me even through the mess ups. I share my mistakes with others, we laugh, we cry, we watch movies, we shop, whatever....No being down on yourself. Do I have moments, yes I do. THAT'S WHEN I FIGHT FOR MY JOY! You are beautiful as you are now: All you are doing is improving your health so that you can shine a lot longer. Take control of your goals, don't let your goals control you. And laugh at the boo boos. Its alright. I promise. Good things are ahead. If all else fails, you can always ask me what "brilliant idea" did I carry out today. I have most likely done something comical. LOL.. no seriously, Love yourself and keep a good support system. You will go far.

[E.Cowin 8]

Well Hello Tiger, How do you feel? I'm going to be banded August 27th. I started out 292 (May2) My Dr. told me I had to lose 15 lbs. before surgery now I'm 270 and still working with it.

[Lady VS 1,147]

Well said Ms. Comedian lol. I do believe a lot of people hurt because they were never really taught how to love. We are our own enemies but at the same time, many individuals have people in their lives that are very critical, self-righteous, demanding and all those negative things. Some of the posts I have read are quite hurtful. That's why I try to always encourage because I still need positive reinforcement from time to time.

[KAATNS 1,473]

I'm loving your posts!!

[♕ajtexas♕ 3,771]

Girlfriend I hear you! Love what you say, and all I can say in reply is "if only we could band our head". One of the hardest parts of this journey is the mental part. our emotions and brain can really throw us for a loop.

Keep posting I love reading your stuff!!!!