Kinda excited, Really nervous

[Sunshine4U 14]

Ok...

So I have been reading a lot of stories on this site for about four months now. I never commented one way or another about the good, bad, and the ugly of pre-op diet, the surgery, or the recovery. I wanted to get all the information I could about the procedure. All the while I have been going to appointments, preparing myself for this journey and trying to decide if this is the best thing for me.

With my insurance (BCBS-FEP) I had to do a 3 month supervised diet, pysc. evaluation, and had numerous attempts at weight loss (check, check, and check). My Dr.'s office submitted my paperwork June 6 and I got my approval June 11, 2013. Really fast huh....? I thought so, I thought it would be weeks before I heard anything but to my surprise I got a phone call today to schedule my pre-op testing, schedule the surgery (surgery date is July 1, 2013) and to start my 2 week liquid diet. (talk about the speed of light) I've been on pins and needles the last couple of days thinking I had weeks to wait but now the time is come I'm kinda freaking out. Don't get me wrong I'm excited because I have thought about having this procedure done for a while but now that it is within reach I'm questioning if I'm making the right decision.

I have not told ANYONE about what I'm doing mainly because I wasn't sure I would be approved, secondly I don't know how they are going to react (other than my mom and her worrying because it is surgery). I know that now I need to share but I'm worried about their reaction because this is a drastic step (in the right direction) but a drastic step still. I only plan on telling one person and that will be the person that has to drive me home. I just feel like this is my decision and my business, and I don't need any negative comments during this journey. After I achieve my goal of weight loss, then I will share how I achieved those goals and will be able to give first hand experience of the LapBand and maybe refer others.

I said all that to say YES I'm excited and YES I'm really nervous.

[mrsto 2,925]

ALL normal stuff! And congrats on the surgery date

My own feeling about telling people is, don't. For now, try & just tell the most significant people in your life; your mom, best friend, boyfriend, etc. Right now, it's important that you take care of yourself, without having to explain it, or deal with the opinions of others. And if you choose to tell casual people in your world (co-workers, etc.) there will be opinions.

The other thing is that people will start to watch what you eat. I don't know about you, but the last thing I want to deal with, is people watching what I do. This is hard enough as it is, without having to deal with "all eyes on you". Again.....just my personal feeling. There have been MANY posts on this same subject, and many were sorry that they told a lot of people. You have to decide what feels good for you. Can you deal with negativity on this huge decision you've made? Are you the type that can let the judgement of others roll off your back?

I've had moments where I was so excited about this, I just wanted to blurt it out. But then I'd hold back. Little by little, I've become less concerned about what anyone else thinks. But even still, my biggest fear is failure. It's not my plan to fail, but if I do, I certainly don't want to deal with the scrutiny of others. Just something to think about.

I wish you all the best with your upcoming surgery. It's a very exciting, life changing time!

[Sunshine4U 14]

Thanks mrsinto!!

That was my reasoning for NOT sharing until its all said and done! I wish you the same success in your journey!

I like this forum because I can share this experience get valuable information and still keep my business private...???€

[mrsto 2,925]

YES - I'm totally with you on that! As much as we somewhat get to know each other on this site, I love the anonymity. There is a lot of support here, and a good group of people