My Reality Stinks- Shopping Trip disgust

[fashionstylist 458]

So I went shopping with my best friend and found out I was bigger than I thought. I don't know how I am gaining all of this weight. Yes I do, something has to happen. I thought I was a size 20 but after moving back to the States, I have packed on so much weight. I was 260 when I arrived, now I am 310. And apparently wearing a size 28 in lane Bryant . I was devastated last night . I know I am doing something abt it but it has just gotten out of hand . I have my psych evaluation on Sat and then 1 of 2 of my last nutritionist visits . I'm so ready for this surgery and new lifestyle change. I'm feeling soooo unhealthy . My back hurts, my knees pop and I can't stand very long. I have never been here before but here I am. I just wanted to vent. Needless to say I am at the carnival and I wouldn't dare embarrass myself in trying to zip line or ride on a ride . I'm ready to have fun again . I just got married 4 months ago. I'm looking at a May surgery date! I'm counting down. But I'm abt to still try to get some weight off .

[Renee2817 76]

good luck on your new life journey.

[DELETE THIS ACCOUNT! 12,703]

Hang in there, I know how painfully discouraging it is, but you're on the right track and regaining control of the situation.

And don't bother buying any clothes right now because by fall they'll all be way too big anyway

[Creekwood 702]

I am looking at a May surgery date as well! I once went about a year without stepping on a scale. I knew that i gad gained weight from the last weigh-in which i was in the 330's.When I finally built up the courage I got on the scale expecting numbers and saw ERROR Lol. I had to but a scale off of eBay to find out that I weighed 395!!

Then I lost 80 pounds. Then I gained 54 back! Now I have decided on have the lap-band surgery done in May and have been trying to lose weight again. Down 14 pounds so far on my own low calorie (1700-2000) diet.

Looking forward to May! Good luck!!

[leannel90 206]

I'm scheduled for May 7th. I totally understand about the shopping. I've been picturing myself in the stores in May of 2014...and what an amazing day I'm going to have. The body you have now is your past...you can live your future starting today!

[hely88 883]

Everyone stay strong!! Your journey is just beginning. I would advise you start working on forming new habits now. Cut out carbonated drinks, take smaller bites, chew longer, stop drinking while eating and anything else you can do to get ready. The journey starts now not your surgery date. Best of luck!

[knhtown 121]

Keep your eye on the prize " a healthy you" while you are waiting on your surgery you would be ahead of the game by practicing eating small bites and chewing them to a mush and the hardest thing for me to learn (still catch myself) not drinking 30 min after food

[fashionstylist 458]

Thanks you guys!!! I needed the encouragement , I'm feeling much better today !!!

[Rmdaniel 30]

Im schedule on May the 9th to get banded..dont get discouraged..keep pushing..