No more lurking...I'm doing this!!!

[mothering9 14]

After lurking here for years (literally), I am on my way. I have insurance approval, get my pre-op diet instructions tomorrow, appt to set surgery next week. I am excited & nervous at the same time. I have read everything I could get my hands on &feel prepared mentally, so the emotions are kind of a suprise to me. I want this, I need this. So why am I scared?

[☠carolinagirl☠ 18,721]

i have no idea why you are scared.

if you want this, then go for it all the way...

develop want power...i dont believe in will power as i can

will myself into just about anything......but i wanted (this surgery)

too like you more than anything and told myself i'd do whatever i had

to to make it happen....LIKE YOU. sooo proud of you. nice to meet you also.

[smurphette 35]

I start my pre op diet today and I'm certainly scared. I tell myself it's okay but I have trouble sleeping, am restless, wake up to a bed that I've torn all the sheets off of in the night.... It's a huge step and I think it's normal to have some anxiety.

[NewMissB 14]

Welcome!

It's definitely normal to feel nervous or have anxiety..I know I did! I wanted my band so badly and did whatever it took to get it, and I have absolutely no regrets!

That's not to say that before and after surgery I wasn't scared or nervous. I definitely had a few times where I thought, "why did I put myself through this??" Reading these forums and asking questions has undoubtedly helped me! Almost a year later and 118 pounds gone, and I wouldn't trade my band for anything...it's saved my life, and no matter how nervous or scared you get, we've all been through it and are here to help! Good luck!!!

[flrosie 154]

I can hardly wait until I can say "almost a year later and x pounds gone!" :wub:

[fashionstylist 458]

I can hardly wait until I can say "almost a year later and x pounds gone!" :wub:

I am right there with u. I lurked here got months and now I'm finally going through with the process ,

[parisshel 1,892]

At four days pre-op, I'm surprised at how emotional I am. (My lord, I can only imagine all the emotions the anesthesia is going to make surface!!!). I was having a lot of trouble sleeping, which is rare for me, but finally last night I got a good night's sleep and I feel much more evened-out this morning.

I think it is really normal to have such a huge (and rapid!) life change provoke fear, emotion and anxiety. It's not like just "starting a diet", is it? It's a radical change into the unknown.

I sense that all these fears will settle down once the unknown becomes the known, i.e., the surgery is behind us, the new way of eating becomes instinctive, and of course we start loving our new shapes and health. So I keep picturing that in my mind....and it helps me remember that these scary times are just temporary and part of getting to the better days.

[CHEZNOEL 4,061]

No reason to be nervous. We all went through it and survived. Don't lurk... come out to play and let us know how you are doing!

[flrosie 154]

I have no fear, no anxiety, no undue emotion except for excitement. I have been fat my whole life. I have no thin times to look back upon. I started on a new health plan a couple of years ago and noticed bariatric surgery was not excluded (except the sleeve). It still took me more than a year before I started thinking about it as seriously within my ability to do.

I cannot wait to see who my thin self looks like. I cannot wait to wear something smaller than a size 16 - the smallest size I've ever worn. I can't wait to ride in an airplane as thin person. I can't wait to see if losing the weight affects my blood pressure, my RLS, my sleep apena. It's trite to say but there is this whole other person inside of me waiting to burst on the scene.

I know I will be the same person, really, but it has to be said that there will be differences because of the way other people will respond/react to me when I am of normal weight. There will be differences because of the extra level of confidence I will have entering a room as a person of normal weight. I'm no wallflower but I am probably typical of the fat-girl syndrome: I am more overt and extroverted than I probably would be if I weren't so heavy. I overcompensate for my size by being the life of the party, the fun/funny one, the happy fat girl.

So, change is a-comin' and I'm happy to receive it! TWO MORE DAYS!!!

[Sandilee0210 75]

I have no fear' date=' no anxiety, no undue emotion except for excitement. I have been fat my whole life. I have no thin times to look back upon. I started on a new health plan a couple of years ago and noticed bariatric surgery was not excluded (except the sleeve). It still took me more than a year before I started thinking about it as seriously within my ability to do.

I cannot wait to see who my thin self looks like. I cannot wait to wear something smaller than a size 16 - the smallest size I've ever worn. I can't wait to ride in an airplane as thin person. I can't wait to see if losing the weight affects my blood pressure, my RLS, my sleep apena. It's trite to say but there is this whole other person inside of me waiting to burst on the scene.

I know I will be the same person, really, but it has to be said that there will be differences because of the way other people will respond/react to me when I am of normal weight. There will be differences because of the extra level of confidence I will have entering a room as a person of normal weight. I'm no wallflower but I am probably typical of the fat-girl syndrome: I am more overt and extroverted than I probably would be if I weren't so heavy. I overcompensate for my size by being the life of the party, the fun/funny one, the happy fat girl.

So, change is a-comin' and I'm happy to receive it! TWO MORE DAYS!!![/quote']

Love this post, and I feel the same! I keep hearing from my friends you are beautiful inside and out... Now.. But I want to tell them, you don't know how it feels to always be the fat one! The worry of having to worry about whether I will fit in that booth. So ready to take back my body! Cheers to surgery in 2 days! Can't wait to be posting on how are surgeries went! Happy March 19th surgery date!

[parisshel 1,892]

It's trite to say but there is this whole other person inside of me waiting to burst on the scene.

Oh, I don't think this is trite at all. Your entire post resonnates with me, and especially this line. I think this accounts for the excitement, too...I'm so grateful for this surgery and its availability (and track record) so that FINALLY I can be the person physically that I am mentally.

Onwards to our rebirths, everyone!

[fashionstylist 458]

I have no fear' date=' no anxiety, no undue emotion except for excitement. I have been fat my whole life. I have no thin times to look back upon. I started on a new health plan a couple of years ago and noticed bariatric surgery was not excluded (except the sleeve). It still took me more than a year before I started thinking about it as seriously within my ability to do.

I cannot wait to see who my thin self looks like. I cannot wait to wear something smaller than a size 16 - the smallest size I've ever worn. I can't wait to ride in an airplane as thin person. I can't wait to see if losing the weight affects my blood pressure, my RLS, my sleep apena. It's trite to say but there is this whole other person inside of me waiting to burst on the scene.

I know I will be the same person, really, but it has to be said that there will be differences because of the way other people will respond/react to me when I am of normal weight. There will be differences because of the extra level of confidence I will have entering a room as a person of normal weight. I'm no wallflower but I am probably typical of the fat-girl syndrome: I am more overt and extroverted than I probably would be if I weren't so heavy. I overcompensate for my size by being the life of the party, the fun/funny one, the happy fat girl.

So, change is a-comin' and I'm happy to receive it! TWO MORE DAYS!!![/quote']

That's right no more fear' , I'm excited for you and all of us. I,too, have never been thin in my adult life and have always been the plus size diva. Well no more just a pretty face! I wonder what my friends will b like when I am the normal weight star in the room! My husband is so supportive and can't wait to see me more confident! And happy again. I find myself no longer wanting to go out and my husband is so proud to take me everywhere he goes. That makes me feel good.. So my friend, u will no longer have to wonder how they will react because it is about to b your reality! Keep us posted!