Disgrace

[catblueluvsyou 1]

Got banded jan 2011. Lost only 50lbs n I put on all of my weight n then some. I am currently at 8cc in my band. Throw up constantly. I can't stop eating **** n over eating. I just joined the gym but can't get back on track eating right. I have no willpower. Also not having a job isn't any help. Idle hands means I'm bored n I graze. I'm sick of being fat but can't seem to care enough to get started. Ugh

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I am so sorry you're going through this.

You say you throw up constantly and have 8cc in your band. I fear you're too tight, which ironically can cause weight gain because when the band is too tight you resort to slider foods to eat- which are usually very high fat and calories. I also worry because vomiting can also lead to a slip.

I would make an appointment with your surgeon ASAP. Tell him everything going on, about the vomiting and weight gain, and ask that your band be checked.

Best wishes to you.

[catblueluvsyou 1]

I had X-rays. It didn't slip. N I see him on the 22nd. Thank you. Yes I'm so upset. With myself mainly.

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I had X-rays. It didn't slip. N I see him on the 22nd. Thank you. Yes I'm so upset. With myself mainly.

The thing is, food addiction is very real. People don't realize it but it is. When an alcoholic decides to go clean they never have to touch a drink again in their lives. But when a food addict tries to "go clean", we still have to eat many times a day for the rest of our lives to live. It's like telling a crack addict "Oh here, you just get two hits" and expecting them to be happy with that. My point is- what your dealing with is very real and very difficult.

Beating yourself up isn't going to help. It's going to hurt your self esteem even more and make you feel worse. You're human and you're struggling, you need legitimate help not to be beat down further.

Have you considered counseling? I know you said you're out of work, but there are a lot of places that offer counseling on a sliding scale based on income. Years ago when I was unemployed and needed counseling, I found a place that only charged me $5 a session. I really think it could help you considerably.

I'm VERY glad you're seeing your surgeon. Be sure he's aware of the vomiting because I really do fear you're too tight.

Hang in there, you can do this.

[catblueluvsyou 1]

Thanx. Yea I think I'm too tight too but I'm scared to gain more weight if I take Fluid out. I do go to counseling already. Maybe ill just bring up the food addiction next session. I'm just a mess in general. I'm gonna go to the gym n blow off steam

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Thanx. Yea I think I'm too tight too but I'm scared to gain more weight if I take Fluid out. I do go to counseling already. Maybe ill just bring up the food addiction next session. I'm just a mess in general. I'm gonna go to the gym n blow off steam

You'd be shocked how many people walk around with bands too tight for fear of gaining weight- yet are already gaining weight- then actually start losing weight again once they get a little Fluid removed and can actually eat healthy foods again. The band being too tight is likely a big part of your weight gain.

Best wishes to you.

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I hope you find the help you need. I am sorry to hear you are having such struggles.

[catblueluvsyou 1]

Thank you guys. I'm sure my se will take Fluid out

[CHEZNOEL 4,061]

Get the help you need. You need help with the eating binges, not the band, which I agree is probably too tight.