No Surgery Yet!

[loggerswife 8]

I'm cleared for surgery and I suppose they are just waiting on me! I'm self pay so it's a huge investment on my part. I'm 43, and have read every single post I think in this 40's forum! I've been researching and discussing this for atleast 6 years. Here is my issue... Now that its a reality and Ive secured financing, gone through all my precert stuff, I am so flippen scared! Is this normal? One second I'm excited about having the surgery, the next second I feel like I'm going to die from panic!

[Blondie638 98]

I think it's totally normal.. I've been dead set on this surgery and today I got the go ahead and a surgery date of jan 25th. And now I'm second guessing everything. I just think this whole idea of putting a tube around your stomach to help you lose weight is insane! But the few people I've told are telling me just to do it.. So here goes nothing!

Best of luck to you and your decisions! I think you should do it!! 6 years is a loooong time!

[loggerswife 8]

I know it's crazy! Up until the point I finalized the money I wasn't a bit scared! Now I'm crazy! At the end of last December I was 70lbs lighter than I am today. I know how to lose it, I just can't sustain it. Which is why I think the band will work for me. The foreign object in my body and potential complications are what scare me. My surgery is 16,000. I'm not sure I can come up with thousands more if I have issues!

[Blondie638 98]

That's expensive.. But I think worth it. Think of what will come from the surgery! I feel you on the weight loss. I got down to 186 once then within he last six years gained nearly 130 lbs! Holy cow!

I just keep thinking of who I want to be.. And how the band will help me get there. Just seems like such a long shot tho