Peaceful1 110 Posted December 21, 2012 Sorry to be a downer. I had my surgery on Monday. This morning I had a huge anxiety attack, thinking "Im going to die" for no reason. Im a little light headed, could be the nicotine gum I chewed to get through the anxiety, but now my thoughts are just all over the place. For some reason, I keep thinking that any moment,something will go wrong, and I will die. I know this isn't rational, but I can't stop the thoughts. There was alot of drama surrounding my surgery. My mother was harassing me, and did everything in her power to stop me from having this surgery. She even made death threats to my surgeon, and I literally had an entire security team outside my room, because they feared for my safety. I had my best friend by my side, but all of the drama messed with my head. My mother then called me yesterday and officialy disowned me from the family because I had this surgery. Even though Im 30, and have never been close to her, somehow her manipulation has entered my brain, and now Im questioning my decision to have surgery. I know this is nuts, just had to vent it out. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
FLORIDAYS 3,040 Posted December 21, 2012 Just take a deep breath. You arent going to die and you will be fine. You had a successful surgery and from what I can tell seem to be recovering well. I might suggest some couseling to get you through the withdrawls going on in your life... food, Family, nicotine... those are some major hurdles and it might be smart just to speak to someone about them... It couldnt hurt. All the best to you.... 5 donna12, ☠carolinagirl☠, DELETE THIS ACCOUNT! and 2 others reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Peaceful1 110 Posted December 21, 2012 Thank you so much. I did start seeing a therapist 2 weeks ago. Thank you for your support. Surgery went well, he did a hernia repair also, didn't even know I had one. Im still having gas pain, and I can't wait to get these staples out because I can't stand looking at them! 2 ☠carolinagirl☠ and ♕ajtexas♕ reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
A New New Dawn 1,695 Posted December 21, 2012 Hi there. I really suggest getting some counseling. The food, family, ex bf, etc. are significant issues to try to deal w/ on your own. I think you could benefit from ongoing counseling. If you can get out (the mall or something) to go for a walk or have a friend come over that may help ease your mind. Know that you are not going to die and you are physically ok. I'm sorry you have been dealing w/ so much. 3 ♕ajtexas♕, dee257 and ☠carolinagirl☠ reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Peaceful1 110 Posted December 21, 2012 Thank you so much. I do plan on having ongoing counseling....the support of this forum has helped me through sooo much. I can't thank you all enough. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
doggylover 46 Posted December 21, 2012 It is sad that you are not even getting support from your family. To have your mother make death threats to you doctor and then disowne you is just awfull. People like that you don’t need around you until you are stronger. Maybe later she will see that you are doing fine and getting healthy she will change her mind. I feel that in your life you have people that love you no matter what and will support you in good times and in bad, then there are others that thrive on you failing and others that don’t care. Try to keep those who love and support you closer and others, just ignore them. For now, whats important is taking care of YOU. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Blondie638 98 Posted December 21, 2012 Wow sounds like your going through a lot. No disrespect to anyone but I'm sorry you had to experience that especially on your surgery day. Sounds like you have a great best friend tho! And I've seen a therapist before and it was great!!. For other issues.. But yes! It couldn't hurt!! 1 ☠carolinagirl☠ reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Blondie638 98 Posted December 21, 2012 And anxiety attacks are the worst. I'm sure you'll be fine. My partner had an anxiety attack a few months ago bc she thought she was dying. We went to the emergency room for them to run two tests of everything just to be sure then they told her she was fine.. All tests were perfectly normal.. Left the hospital with a nearly 4k hospital bill.. Maybe breathing and medatation will help for the mean time :/ 2 msseven and ☠carolinagirl☠ reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
line-dancer 810 Posted December 21, 2012 Call your therapist now and let her know these uncontrollable thought there is meds to help you out. You will meet a lot of people who will be jelous because you are taking control of yourself and body and they will not be supportive but we are here and we will be. Do not talk to your Mom about this ever she is in need of cousling also. keep your distance from people that are not supportive and stay focused on the new life ahead...Come to the chat area any time for support also someone is always there. you can do this and nothing bad is going to happen to you from the band. never heard of a nicotine patch for anxiety but if it works good. 1 ☠carolinagirl☠ reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
CHEZNOEL 4,061 Posted December 21, 2012 Be honest with your therapist and you will get through this. I am sorry your family is not a part of it and I know that must hurt. It is your life, and you have taken steps to make it better. Congratulations. 2 ♕ajtexas♕ and ☠carolinagirl☠ reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Peaceful1 110 Posted December 22, 2012 I want you all to know how deeply I appreciate your kind thoughts and words. I feel a bit better today. Was able to obtain some liquid anxiety medication from my Dr, and just had a phone session with my therapist. One day at a time. Thank you all again. You are amazing. Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
Tiffany3280 45 Posted December 22, 2012 I'm sorry you have to go through all this . I can kind of relate to you, my mom wasn't that supportive of me and my surgery. Like you I had people in my corner. Just remember we all are one big family here.... We are here to help in any way possible!!!! Sent from my iPhone using LapBandTalk 1 Peaceful1 reacted to this Share this post Link to post Share on other sites
