I'm At War With My Band

[SueBee01 630]

Hoover, hope everything works out. Let us know how the scan goes.

[hoover123 48]

Thank you for caring. Just in a bad place right now. I just thought after almost 2 years of being banded I was clear of these things happening. I went from a new person to a depressed discouraged person. Mostly because the doc woudln't listen. Again, just the pain talking. I pray a lot and tell myself it will get resolved. If it means changing doctors or clinics. Froedert is known to be the best in the country. I guess doctors can't predict our outcome but they sure can help us when they are needed. I will let everyone know whats going on with my port. I wish I could find someone who is going through this too. (I don't wish this upon anyone) but it would be nice to know things can be resolved with this. I am usually a very up beat postive fun person. She has left the building and I am patiently waiting for her to come back. I miss me and so does my family.......

[Jachut 487]

You know, its taken a lot for this message to get into my thick head. I am a carbaholic, love love love muffins, Cookies, cakes, sweet nutty concoctions (like "healthy" bars) and chocolate. Strangely, I hate bread and whilst I like Pasta and rice and wouldnt ever give them up, I dont overeat them. Just the sweet stuff.

I've had a band for seven years and never given up these foods, even though I've lost weight. I'm prone to periods of time of eating nothing BUT these foods, skipping all the healthy stuff to have a donut for lunch. Calores in, calories out is all that matters in the end - and I'm healthy overall - but this is my weakness.

However, since my whole cancer journey, side effects of radiation and chemo, I cant eat wheat - or a lot of sugar. I'm not allergic, nothing drastic will happen in the short term, but over time it makes me chronically and horribly constipated - along with lactose, fructose and sugar. Despite the fact that I will throw up instantly if I try to stuff a donut down fast, its been the Constipation and bloating, seven years later, which has finally cured me of my desire for yeasty sweet foods. I just dont want them.The mental association with toilet troubles is just too strong.

Why on earth would the mental association with being fat, unhealthy and pbing not do it for me? Weird huh?

And you know, I hear you on the pain and positivity thing. I should be ecstatic over the fact that i'm 2 years cancer free and all signs for a cancer free future are great. But I'm so consumed with my daily battle with my bowels, niggly left sided pain, a stitch in my left side, the need for an enema to have a bowel motion which is kinda crampy and awful and followed by several hours of low grade cramping, urges to push. Every single freaking day. And apparently that's a GOOD outcome following radiation and resection. I have to work very hard for it not not overwhelm my outlook but constant pain does wear you down. You dont have to feel you need to support everyone here when you need it yourself.

[MiniMi 1,468]

Thank you for caring. Just in a bad place right now. I just thought after almost 2 years of being banded I was clear of these things happening. I went from a new person to a depressed discouraged person. Mostly because the doc woudln't listen. Again' date=' just the pain talking. I pray a lot and tell myself it will get resolved. If it means changing doctors or clinics. Froedert is known to be the best in the country. I guess doctors can't predict our outcome but they sure can help us when they are needed. I will let everyone know whats going on with my port. I wish I could find someone who is going through this too. (I don't wish this upon anyone) but it would be nice to know things can be resolved with this. I am usually a very up beat postive fun person. She has left the building and I am patiently waiting for her to come back. I miss me and so does my family.......[/quote']

Hope you get to the bottom of it own! Keep us posted