Surgery Tuesday and having some Morbid thoughts.....

[jtrek 0]

Okay,I paid the hospital this past week and the lady asks if I have Living will,,,,,,,,yes I tell her. Then she says does anyone have medical power of attorney over me....yes, my hubby. She says make sure he brings that along........I'm thinking OMG does she expect something to go wrong. Also I was self pay, but at end she says make sure hubby brings her copy of insurance card,,,,,,,just in case. WTF just in case!!!!!

Now all I can think is what if I die, who will take care of my babies. What would they bury me in(I don't have a thing to wear LOL) OMG we havent done our taxes yet and I usually do them....will hubby be able to.... BLAH BLAH BLAH...Thoughts like that.

:confused: Evil woman at Hospital.........for making me think!!!!

Please pray for me and my family this week! I am scared. I am really scared of getting sepsis (a blood infection you can get from surgery) My dad died of this on March 22, 2002..........so having my surgery on the 21st is kind of creeping me out. My mom is coming for the surgery, but we have decided not to tell my brother or sister about it since it is happening so close to the anniversary of Dad's death.

please send prayers and positive thoughts!!!!!!

[Tricia K. 0]

Awww...I'm sorry that this upset you but she was just doing her job. I'm positive that your surgery will be fine. I also hope you have a very easy recovery. We'll see you in bandland very soon!! :confused:

[jtrek 0]

Thanks Tricia!!! I hope to do as well as you! those are some awesome after pics you posted!!!

[PhotoNut 7]

Hey Jana,

Just wanted to give you a hug before I head to bed, and to tell you that what you're feeling is so normal. Some folks spend hours writing letters to loved ones, many make sure their wills are in order. It's a normal thing to want to be prepared for anything. But find hope in the fact that there are so many of us here to comfort you and encourage you - for we went through the same surgery and are doing just fine. I'm sure you will too.

I will remember to keep you in my prayers, along with your family. The anniversary of the loss of a loved one is always emotional. I can understand why you are feeling the way you are. Just try to look past Tuesday and on to all the wonderful things you have to look forward to in your life.

Oh, and by the way.. Tuesday, the 21st - very special day/date for Dawg and me. We met online and the first time we saw each other face to face was a Tuesday, the 21st (of April) and we were married on a Tuesday, the 21st (of September). Its a great day for special anniversaries. Now it will be for you as well. *hugs*

[Tricia K. 0]

Thanks Tricia!!! I hope to do as well as you! those are some awesome after pics you posted!!!

You're very welcome, sweetie. And, thank you for the kind words. :confused:

[jtrek 0]

Thanks again to all Yall. Jack, Susan and Tricia! (((((hugs))))) right back to all of you!

[jtrek 0]

Well today, I feel a little less scared(not)

But my 4 yr old kept asking me "Is today your surgery and is daddy taking you to the hospital?" I told her no it's tomorrow. She asked this several times.

Then when I took her to preschool, she started crying and kept running back to the door to kiss me and tell me she loved me. She was crying when I left her.

Now I feel like....Wow should I do this.....but If I don't I could die from being overweight.

God I can't wait for Wednesday morning and then it will all be over with!!!!

MY nerves are killing me(makes me want to barf):confused:

Sorry I keep talking about my fears, but I have no one else to talk to. I can't really talk to Hubby because he has never dealt well with me being sick or in the hospital. So I need you guys as my sounding board!

Thanks and hugs to all.

[NeenBand 7]

Your as scared as I was, believe me (read my blog...hehehe) . When they gave me those forms and asked those questions, it was on the morning of my surgery and it made my fear even worse. But they ask that of anyone undergoing a procedure.

[Wheetsin 714]

If it makes you feel any better, your nurse was asking you pretty standard questions. I was asked 3 times if I had a living will. I think they do it standard, as a service (reminder) to people, but it certainly can give you a moment of - "Uh, why are you asking??" :confused:

[maryb 1]

I know where you are coming from.... I got the same routine and I was a private pay also. Anytime you go under anesthia there is a risk. We would be foolish to ignore this risk. In my oppinon, anytime an operation can give us more quality or quantity of life it is worth the risk.

I will be praying for you to have peace with your decission.

[MelvaD 0]

jtrek,

I am getting banded on tuesday also. I know just how you feel. They asked me the same question as they did you. Just hang in there and all will be well. I see you on the other side. Good luck.

MelvaD